<?xml version="1.0" encoding="utf-8"?><feed xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2005/Atom" ><generator uri="https://jekyllrb.com/" version="4.4.1">Jekyll</generator><link href="https://tobylam.xyz/feed.xml" rel="self" type="application/atom+xml" /><link href="https://tobylam.xyz/" rel="alternate" type="text/html" /><updated>2026-02-16T17:32:15+08:00</updated><id>https://tobylam.xyz/feed.xml</id><title type="html">Toby Lam</title><author><name>Toby Lam</name></author><entry><title type="html">Ending 2025 in HK: Exotericism/esotericism</title><link href="https://tobylam.xyz/2025/12/31/hk-esotericism" rel="alternate" type="text/html" title="Ending 2025 in HK: Exotericism/esotericism" /><published>2025-12-31T00:00:00+08:00</published><updated>2025-12-31T00:00:00+08:00</updated><id>https://tobylam.xyz/2025/12/31/hk-esotericism</id><content type="html" xml:base="https://tobylam.xyz/2025/12/31/hk-esotericism"><![CDATA[<div class="full-bleed">
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<h2 id="esoteric-writing">Esoteric Writing</h2>

<p>I really liked Arthur Melzer’s book, <a href="https://conversationswithbillkristol.org/conversation/arthur-melzer/">Philosophy Between the Lines: The Lost History of Esoteric Writing</a>, on how philosophers in the past concealed their thoughts through careful writing, why and how they did so, and why it fell out of favor. If you have doubts about the thesis, there’s a <a href="https://gwern.net/doc/philosophy/epistemology/2014-melzer-appendix.pdf">freely accessible appendix</a> that includes testimonial evidence from Homer to Wittgenstein. For example, Tocqueville has written</p>

<blockquote>
  <p>The books that have made men reflect the most and have had the most influence on their opinions and actions are not those in which the author has sought to tell them dogmatically what is suitable to think, but those in which he has set their minds on the road leading to truths and has made them find these truths for themselves.</p>
</blockquote>

<p>The book was fundamentally interesting to me because of how often we speak esoterically with our closest friends in ways that are almost unintelligible to outisders. Going back to Tocqueville’s quote, surely when we try to change the minds of our close friends we do not speak to them as if to a stranger, instead we begin from their viewpoint  and speak in a language imbued with our shared ideas and experiences.</p>

<p>So we create inside jokes and references with friends not necessarily to exclude others from understanding, but perhaps because they describe shared ideas and experiences that ordinary language cannot.</p>

<p>As Tolstoy articulates in his depiction of Natásha and Pierre, only a husband and wife can converse “with extraordinary clearness and rapidity, understanding and expressing each other’s thoughts in ways contrary to all rules of logic, without premises, deductions, or conclusions.” Tolstoy even emphasizes that, for Natásha, “it was the surest sign of something being wrong between them if Pierre followed a line of logical reasoning”. Deviation from obscure communication signaled discord.</p>

<p>Turning this the other way round, befriending someone is ultimately an exercise to develop a form of shared esoteric writing. It requires intellectual commitment from both sides to deeply understand each other and come up with clever and subtle things to say.</p>

<p>All in all, if you believe that philosophers did write esoterically, it seems like there’s a lot to learn from them on this art.</p>

<h2 id="hiking">Hiking</h2>

<p>Hiking with friends is awesome! This year, I’ve hiked Wilson Trail sections 1 and 2 as well as Ngau Kwu Leng Hiking Trail and Wu Tip Shan Path. I’d recommend Wilson Trail Section 2! You will see the quarry of Quarry Bay as well as great open views of Hong Kong Island.</p>

<p><img class="full-width-image" src="/generated/assets/images/2025-12-31-hkisland-800-8cb0d00f4.webp" srcset="/generated/assets/images/2025-12-31-hkisland-400-8cb0d00f4.webp 400w, /generated/assets/images/2025-12-31-hkisland-600-8cb0d00f4.webp 600w, /generated/assets/images/2025-12-31-hkisland-800-8cb0d00f4.webp 800w, /generated/assets/images/2025-12-31-hkisland-1000-8cb0d00f4.webp 1000w" /></p>]]></content><author><name>Toby Lam</name></author><category term="Life" /><category term="Life@HongKong" /><category term="Book reviews" /><summary type="html"><![CDATA[]]></summary></entry><entry><title type="html">An Autumn in Hong Kong: Input/output</title><link href="https://tobylam.xyz/2025/12/01/autumn-in-hong-kong" rel="alternate" type="text/html" title="An Autumn in Hong Kong: Input/output" /><published>2025-12-01T00:00:00+08:00</published><updated>2025-12-01T00:00:00+08:00</updated><id>https://tobylam.xyz/2025/12/01/autumn-in-hong-kong</id><content type="html" xml:base="https://tobylam.xyz/2025/12/01/autumn-in-hong-kong"><![CDATA[<div class="full-bleed">
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<h2 id="publish-or-perish">Publish or perish?</h2>

<p>To essay is to try. I always feel like I’m not writing enough. I’m not even trying. Even if I write a lot in my journals, I feel like I’m not writing anything serious or public. If it’s any good, why am I not putting it in the blog? If my blog posts are so great, why am I not publishing it in student newspapers? Despite getting some encouragement to do so, I’ve never mustered enough courage to send something to <a href="https://cherwell.org">Cherwell</a>.</p>

<p>I was recently reading <a href="https://afeteworsethandeath.substack.com/p/goodbye-to-all-this">Becca Rothfeld</a> on why she quitted writing on substack. She felt that her “published writing is polished” yet her substack posts are “disheviled and uncertain”. The enemy of writing is not writing at all, yet I always feel guitly whenever I journal too much in seclusion. Should I at least talk through what I’ve been thinking to my friends? If it goes well, should I write a blog post about it? Am I just disheviled and uncertain?</p>

<p>Still, she concedes that she liked substack back when “no one really cared what I said”. I suppose as long as this is true I should keep writing here. Yet becoming a public figure is no longer voluntary. More and more will have their 15 minutes of fame, their worst dug out and promptly forgotten. Writing is truly one of the most dangerous thing one can do. One must never be under the illusion that what one writes publically will ever stay private.</p>

<p>Sometimes people say you shouldn’t think so far ahead, but why not? Extraodinary success requires long-term thinking and planning, even if survivorship bias leads us to overemphasize this trait in the winners we observe. One of the unfortunate halmarks of less-privellaged people simply cannot afford long-term thinking. It seems more accurate that, as people age, they become increasingly haunted by unfulfilled plans from the past and thus hesitate to make concrete plans that might go awry later in life. Yet, is avoiding long-term thinking even possible?</p>

<p>If one writes then one cannot avoid long-term thinking–If writing is thinking, and by its virtue of sticking forever it’s long-term thinking. One of the things I’ve loved most is digging up ancient text messages in whatsapp chats. Every conversation is filled with declarations unfulfilled, opinions since corrected, trip ideas that went nowhere.</p>

<p>I suppose unfufilled plans make people devastated–so much effort wasted? Yet the past is overdetermined. There are always too many reasons why things didn’t work. How can you tackle them all without ending up living in the past? The solution always seems to be making the next plan, to essay again.</p>]]></content><author><name>Toby Lam</name></author><category term="Life" /><category term="Life@HongKong" /><summary type="html"><![CDATA[Publish or perish?]]></summary></entry><entry><title type="html">Finding English Classics in HK and Shenzhen</title><link href="https://tobylam.xyz/2025/11/15/books-shenzhen-hong-kong" rel="alternate" type="text/html" title="Finding English Classics in HK and Shenzhen" /><published>2025-11-15T00:00:00+08:00</published><updated>2025-11-15T00:00:00+08:00</updated><id>https://tobylam.xyz/2025/11/15/books-shenzhen-hong-kong</id><content type="html" xml:base="https://tobylam.xyz/2025/11/15/books-shenzhen-hong-kong"><![CDATA[<p>tl;dr: Buy books on TaoBao, browse books at Eslite.</p>

<h2 id="longer-tldr">Longer tldr</h2>

<p>Browsing:   <a href="https://maps.app.goo.gl/HgbbYKt7DTGFKZ5d6">Eslite Causeway Bay</a>  / <a href="https://maps.app.goo.gl/9sXscp11Fs66qaMV7">Tsim Sha Tsui</a> are complete with neat collections but not great seating. <a href="https://www.hkpl.gov.hk/en/locations/central-library.html">Hong Kong Central Library</a> has more books in worse condition, and worse environment, but more seats. <a href="https://www.szlib.org.cn">Shenzhen Library</a> has less classics but the environment is more pleasing than HK’s.</p>

<p>Purchasing: Taobao dominates especially older titles. Otherwise look into <a href="https://www.elephants.com.hk">Elephants HK</a>. You might get some copy-right expired books for the cheap in mainland bookstores, but Taobao would most likely still be cheaper.</p>

<h2 id="errata">Errata</h2>

<ul>
  <li>Generally I think English classics is a pretty good proxy for overall English holdings.</li>
  <li>Fundamentally, I think the strategy is to buy any longer classics on Taobao and borrow the rest from HK libraries.</li>
  <li>Taobao’s pricing schemes are generally quite predatory and takes some time to get used to. Always pay notice to the final bill.</li>
  <li>The markup in Eslite is generally 30%-50%. You’ll not get newly released English books in mainland bookstores or Taobao for that much cheaper.</li>
  <li>You get to use free Wifi if you register as a reader in Shenzhen library. It’s the only place I’ve been to where I can use free public wifi without a mainland phone number.</li>
  <li>You only get to borrow 1-2 non-chinese books in Shenzhen libraries compared to 10 in HK libraries.</li>
  <li>HK libraries have a disproportionately high (and duplicative) collection of Shakespeare, poetry and biographies in my view.</li>
  <li>You can pay HKD3.3 to get any book in the HK libraries system delivered to your local library. It’s best to browse in Central Library though.</li>
  <li>For HK libaries, you can renew books 5 times, each time extending the lease for 14 days. It’s not really enough for long classics in my view.</li>
  <li>You can generally get last year’s best books of the year in HK libraries.</li>
  <li>Not worth much effort optimising all this, but it was personally interesting since it helped me develop an understanding of what people generally read in what places. Eslite bookstores always have a display of their best-selling books at the moment which is super informative.</li>
</ul>]]></content><author><name>Toby Lam</name></author><category term="Life" /><category term="Life@HongKong" /><summary type="html"><![CDATA[tl;dr: Buy books on TaoBao, browse books at Eslite.]]></summary></entry><entry><title type="html">Catan Probability Calculator</title><link href="https://tobylam.xyz/2025/09/08/catan" rel="alternate" type="text/html" title="Catan Probability Calculator" /><published>2025-09-08T00:00:00+08:00</published><updated>2025-09-08T00:00:00+08:00</updated><id>https://tobylam.xyz/2025/09/08/catan</id><content type="html" xml:base="https://tobylam.xyz/2025/09/08/catan"><![CDATA[<p>See how likely it is to get any combinations of resources in Catan (and more)! Check it out <a href="/catan">here</a>!</p>

<h2 id="some-thoughts">Some thoughts</h2>

<p>We focus exclusively on base Catan with 4 players, and we’ll use “2 resources” or “2 income” to denote an expected resource income of 2 every 4 turns, referred to as the “next round.”</p>

<ul>
  <li>Discard probabilities are high. Holding 8 resources by turn end implies a ≈50% chance you will discard next round, you should trade if that’s the case.</li>
</ul>

<p>With a starter 2-income setup, the discard probability is ≈25% with 7 cards in hand and ≈10% with 6 cards in hand–You’re expected to lose 2 and 1 cards, respectively, by the next round. Trading 4:1 for a resource you don’t naturally produce mitigates this risk.</p>

<p>With a mid-game 4 income setup, the discard probability is ≈30% with 7 cards, ≈20% with 6 cards and ≈10% with 5 cards. Trading early is advisable if you have 6 cards or more.</p>

<ul>
  <li>
    <p>Robbing is powerful. It steals 1 resource and usually blocks 0.5 income per round on a 6 or 8 tile or more, ceasing 30-70% of a player’s income.</p>
  </li>
  <li>
    <p>To gauge income quickly, note that a settlement next to a 6 or 8 tile yields approx. 0.5 income, while 9 dots corresponds to 1 income per round.</p>
  </li>
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<h2 id="truth-seeking">Truth-seeking</h2>

<p>To summarise the whole degree, it’s about truth-seeking. Mathematics is perhaps the closest to absoloute truth that is accumulative and irretractable. Obviously one can never truly escape from subjectivity such as a matter of taste, and perhaps we have been excessively reducing mathematics to symbol manipulation or pure logic, yet that criticism can be applied to really all subjects, and even if mathematics is particularly prone to that disease, I digress that one of the most significant appeals of mathematics is indeed its relative objectivity and accumulative nature compared to so many others.</p>

<p>At the same time, having been interacting with so many ambassadors, presidents and professors across a dizzying spectrum of studies has made me question whether mathematics deserve my exclusive focus.</p>

<p>And yet, it’s painfully clear that doing any meaningful work requires focus. This worries me. Tolstoy wrote:</p>

<blockquote>
  <p>Those who tried to understand the general course of events and to take part in it by self-sacrifice and heroism were the most useless members of society, they saw everything upside down, and all they did for the common good turned out to be useless and foolish”.</p>
</blockquote>

<p>In a way, that’s what I’ve come away with from all those talks—a general grasp of the general course of events.</p>

<p>Personally, I blame the Hong Kong secondary school educational system for never really teaching me anything and thus I had to specialise into something without looking sufficiently at the grass on the other side. Yet one has always been able to lob criticisms like this at educational institutions. Mihajlo Pupin over 100 years ago wrote:</p>

<blockquote>
  <p>Long before the end of the academic year, I finished Routh’s preliminary tripos course in dynamics and much of the auxiliary mathematics demanded by it, and became quite skilled in solving dynamical problems. I had much difficulty in keeping pace with Routh’s classes, but I succeeded, and Niven was pleased. But I was not pleased; I did not think that I had found there what I had expected to find. In the course of time I discovered that I was not alone in my opinion; many Cambridge men failed to find in tripos drills the stimulating elements of that scientific spirit which leads to original research. I was a goose which groped around in a fog when I came to Cambridge; but, if I had come from an English college as a promising tripos candidate, with my work cut out for me by my superiors and in accordance with old customs and traditions of Cambridge, I should not have discovered that there was in Cambridge at that time an epoch-making movement, the significance of which cannot be overestimated. I shall return to this point later.</p>
</blockquote>

<p>This tension is perhaps best encapsulated by the following (translated) passage by Wang Huning:</p>

<blockquote>
  <p>A student came to see me in the evening, saying they wanted to “have a talk.” Nowadays, students have some rather unusual ideas. In this ever-changing society and with the increasingly loose social structure, students are entirely on their own when it comes to choosing their path in life. Many of them, as soon as they leave high school, are faced with a series of major life decisions. In the past, parents and teachers were the ones in charge. But now, with changes in culture and society, it’s up to the students themselves to decide.</p>

  <p>Indeed, many students are confused and don’t know how to face a world full of choices and contradictions. Quite a few of them miss out on important development opportunities simply because they can’t make a choice, while others lose out because they make choices too early. Truly, sometimes making a choice isn’t good, and not making one isn’t good either. Sometimes it’s better to choose, and sometimes it’s better not to. Asking a young person to make such decisions really isn’t easy.</p>
</blockquote>

<p>Indeed perhaps what is the most intimidating is the diversity of the choices,  Thomas Paine wrote:</p>

<blockquote>
  <p>I believe I should never have been known in the world as an author on any subject whatever, had it not been for the affairs of America.</p>
</blockquote>

<p>That logic applies to nearly every institution and influence that shaped me. I owe a debt to them all. Perhaps that debt implies a moral obligation: to give something back. I could devote my life to China, to Hong Kong, to my alma maters, the hospitals that cared for me—the list goes on.</p>

<p>And speaking of that logic, there’s always this tension between leaving and staying when it comes to social mobility. More often than not, upward mobility means permanently moving away from the (relatively) deprived areas one comes from. The rhetoric often centers on the appealing idea of leaving temporarily to gain education or resources, with the ultimate goal of returning to uplift the community you came from. Yet fundamentally the narrative persists largely because it sounds good. There’s no inherent reason why that must necessarily be the best course of action. In fact, it is entirely possible that to fulfil one’s greatest potential - or moral obligation - might mean staying among the “elite” and leaving behind the place you came from.</p>

<p>In some ways, I’m leaving this degree more confused than when I began—and that’s something I did not expect.</p>

<h2 id="telling-the-tale">Telling the tale</h2>

<p>How should I tell the tale of having studied here?</p>

<p>Every few years my secondary school sends 1-2 students to Oxford. I’ve been lucky to learn from those who came before me—people who helped guide me through my time here and retold their struggles under academic pressure or COVID. Thanks to their guidance, I felt I had the chance—and the responsibility—to live an even fuller life here than they could, and to pass on those lessons so future students can do the same.</p>

<p>Yet as my tale ends and I begin retelling it to generations to come, it’s irresitable to also present my experiences as a struggle. The truth is, even if Oxford somehow isn’t academically challenging to some, there’s almost always something else—finding friends, fitting in, or just the process of growing up—that makes it tough. Leaving that out wouldn’t just be dishonest—it’d make the reality hit even harder. While I believe these trials and tribulations are what shape our deepest convictions—just as confusion often precedes clarity—I still wonder: to those who I recommend the Oxford experience, will I win them over or simply alienate them?</p>

<h2 id="reading">Reading</h2>

<p>On a less serious note, I’ve read around 4 times as much as I did in previous years, and I can recount a few but significant conversations in which if I read as much the conversation would’ve been far more dull and one-sided and my conversant would’ve come away with a far lower opinion of me.</p>

<p>This interest in reading was very much driven by the bookworms around me who I admired. Perhaps even if one could not choose the five people you surround with, you can choose which five people you admire and imitate.</p>

<h2 id="gallery">Gallery</h2>

<p>Four years of <a href="/archive/tags#Life@Oxford">Life@Oxford</a> …</p>

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<img alt="Balliol College" class="full-width-image" src="/generated/assets/images/balliol-600-f2e88e86f.webp" srcset="/generated/assets/images/balliol-480-f2e88e86f.webp 480w, /generated/assets/images/balliol-600-f2e88e86f.webp 600w, /generated/assets/images/balliol-720-f2e88e86f.webp 720w, /generated/assets/images/balliol-900-f2e88e86f.webp 900w, /generated/assets/images/balliol-1080-f2e88e86f.webp 1080w, /generated/assets/images/balliol-1260-f2e88e86f.webp 1260w, /generated/assets/images/balliol-1440-f2e88e86f.webp 1440w, /generated/assets/images/balliol-1704-f2e88e86f.webp 1704w" sizes="(max-width: 600px) 100vw, (max-width: 1000px) 600px, (max-width: 1400px) 600px, (min-width: 1401px) 600px" width="1704" height="426" />


<img alt="Balliol College Masterfield" class="full-width-image" src="/generated/assets/images/balliolmf-600-3a8f543fb.webp" srcset="/generated/assets/images/balliolmf-480-3a8f543fb.webp 480w, /generated/assets/images/balliolmf-600-3a8f543fb.webp 600w, /generated/assets/images/balliolmf-720-3a8f543fb.webp 720w, /generated/assets/images/balliolmf-900-3a8f543fb.webp 900w, /generated/assets/images/balliolmf-1080-3a8f543fb.webp 1080w, /generated/assets/images/balliolmf-1260-3a8f543fb.webp 1260w, /generated/assets/images/balliolmf-1440-3a8f543fb.webp 1440w, /generated/assets/images/balliolmf-1598-3a8f543fb.webp 1598w" sizes="(max-width: 600px) 100vw, (max-width: 1000px) 600px, (max-width: 1400px) 600px, (min-width: 1401px) 600px" width="1598" height="400" />


<img alt="River" class="full-width-image" src="/generated/assets/images/river-600-0712bf0c5.webp" srcset="/generated/assets/images/river-480-0712bf0c5.webp 480w, /generated/assets/images/river-600-0712bf0c5.webp 600w, /generated/assets/images/river-720-0712bf0c5.webp 720w, /generated/assets/images/river-900-0712bf0c5.webp 900w, /generated/assets/images/river-1080-0712bf0c5.webp 1080w, /generated/assets/images/river-1260-0712bf0c5.webp 1260w, /generated/assets/images/river-1440-0712bf0c5.webp 1440w, /generated/assets/images/river-1800-0712bf0c5.webp 1800w, /generated/assets/images/river-2160-0712bf0c5.webp 2160w, /generated/assets/images/river-3840-0712bf0c5.webp 3840w" sizes="(max-width: 600px) 100vw, (max-width: 1000px) 600px, (max-width: 1400px) 600px, (min-width: 1401px) 600px" width="4028" height="1008" />


<img alt="Balliol Clock" class="full-width-image" src="/generated/assets/images/balliolclock-600-092650393.webp" srcset="/generated/assets/images/balliolclock-480-092650393.webp 480w, /generated/assets/images/balliolclock-600-092650393.webp 600w, /generated/assets/images/balliolclock-720-092650393.webp 720w, /generated/assets/images/balliolclock-900-092650393.webp 900w, /generated/assets/images/balliolclock-1080-092650393.webp 1080w, /generated/assets/images/balliolclock-1260-092650393.webp 1260w, /generated/assets/images/balliolclock-1440-092650393.webp 1440w, /generated/assets/images/balliolclock-1800-092650393.webp 1800w, /generated/assets/images/balliolclock-2160-092650393.webp 2160w, /generated/assets/images/balliolclock-3456-092650393.webp 3456w" sizes="(max-width: 600px) 100vw, (max-width: 1000px) 600px, (max-width: 1400px) 600px, (min-width: 1401px) 600px" width="3456" height="864" />


<img alt="Sunset" class="full-width-image" src="/generated/assets/images/sunset-600-186971cba.webp" srcset="/generated/assets/images/sunset-480-186971cba.webp 480w, /generated/assets/images/sunset-600-186971cba.webp 600w, /generated/assets/images/sunset-720-186971cba.webp 720w, /generated/assets/images/sunset-900-186971cba.webp 900w, /generated/assets/images/sunset-1080-186971cba.webp 1080w, /generated/assets/images/sunset-1260-186971cba.webp 1260w, /generated/assets/images/sunset-1440-186971cba.webp 1440w, /generated/assets/images/sunset-1800-186971cba.webp 1800w, /generated/assets/images/sunset-2160-186971cba.webp 2160w, /generated/assets/images/sunset-3840-186971cba.webp 3840w" sizes="(max-width: 600px) 100vw, (max-width: 1000px) 600px, (max-width: 1400px) 600px, (min-width: 1401px) 600px" width="4032" height="1100" />


<img alt="Sunset" class="full-width-image" src="/generated/assets/images/sunset2-600-3e592c0da.webp" srcset="/generated/assets/images/sunset2-480-3e592c0da.webp 480w, /generated/assets/images/sunset2-600-3e592c0da.webp 600w, /generated/assets/images/sunset2-720-3e592c0da.webp 720w, /generated/assets/images/sunset2-900-3e592c0da.webp 900w, /generated/assets/images/sunset2-1080-3e592c0da.webp 1080w, /generated/assets/images/sunset2-1260-3e592c0da.webp 1260w, /generated/assets/images/sunset2-1440-3e592c0da.webp 1440w, /generated/assets/images/sunset2-1800-3e592c0da.webp 1800w, /generated/assets/images/sunset2-2160-3e592c0da.webp 2160w, /generated/assets/images/sunset2-3840-3e592c0da.webp 3840w" sizes="(max-width: 600px) 100vw, (max-width: 1000px) 600px, (max-width: 1400px) 600px, (min-width: 1401px) 600px" width="3972" height="993" />


<img alt="University parks in frost" class="full-width-image" src="/generated/assets/images/university-parks-winter-600-ade8e6d34.webp" srcset="/generated/assets/images/university-parks-winter-480-ade8e6d34.webp 480w, /generated/assets/images/university-parks-winter-600-ade8e6d34.webp 600w, /generated/assets/images/university-parks-winter-720-ade8e6d34.webp 720w, /generated/assets/images/university-parks-winter-900-ade8e6d34.webp 900w, /generated/assets/images/university-parks-winter-1080-ade8e6d34.webp 1080w, /generated/assets/images/university-parks-winter-1260-ade8e6d34.webp 1260w, /generated/assets/images/university-parks-winter-1440-ade8e6d34.webp 1440w, /generated/assets/images/university-parks-winter-1800-ade8e6d34.webp 1800w, /generated/assets/images/university-parks-winter-2160-ade8e6d34.webp 2160w, /generated/assets/images/university-parks-winter-3628-ade8e6d34.webp 3628w" sizes="(max-width: 600px) 100vw, (max-width: 1000px) 600px, (max-width: 1400px) 600px, (min-width: 1401px) 600px" width="3628" height="907" />


<img alt="Halfway Hall" class="full-width-image" src="/generated/assets/images/2023-03-11-greenwich-600-98725131e.webp" srcset="/generated/assets/images/2023-03-11-greenwich-480-98725131e.webp 480w, /generated/assets/images/2023-03-11-greenwich-600-98725131e.webp 600w, /generated/assets/images/2023-03-11-greenwich-720-98725131e.webp 720w, /generated/assets/images/2023-03-11-greenwich-900-98725131e.webp 900w, /generated/assets/images/2023-03-11-greenwich-1080-98725131e.webp 1080w, /generated/assets/images/2023-03-11-greenwich-1260-98725131e.webp 1260w, /generated/assets/images/2023-03-11-greenwich-1440-98725131e.webp 1440w, /generated/assets/images/2023-03-11-greenwich-1800-98725131e.webp 1800w, /generated/assets/images/2023-03-11-greenwich-2160-98725131e.webp 2160w, /generated/assets/images/2023-03-11-greenwich-3840-98725131e.webp 3840w" sizes="(max-width: 600px) 100vw, (max-width: 1000px) 600px, (max-width: 1400px) 600px, (min-width: 1401px) 600px" width="4024" height="1007" />


<img alt="Halfway Hall" class="full-width-image" src="/generated/assets/images/2023-04-15-blossom-600-836bc3615.webp" srcset="/generated/assets/images/2023-04-15-blossom-480-836bc3615.webp 480w, /generated/assets/images/2023-04-15-blossom-600-836bc3615.webp 600w, /generated/assets/images/2023-04-15-blossom-720-836bc3615.webp 720w, /generated/assets/images/2023-04-15-blossom-900-836bc3615.webp 900w, /generated/assets/images/2023-04-15-blossom-1080-836bc3615.webp 1080w, /generated/assets/images/2023-04-15-blossom-1260-836bc3615.webp 1260w, /generated/assets/images/2023-04-15-blossom-1440-836bc3615.webp 1440w, /generated/assets/images/2023-04-15-blossom-1800-836bc3615.webp 1800w, /generated/assets/images/2023-04-15-blossom-2160-836bc3615.webp 2160w, /generated/assets/images/2023-04-15-blossom-3024-836bc3615.webp 3024w" sizes="(max-width: 600px) 100vw, (max-width: 1000px) 600px, (max-width: 1400px) 600px, (min-width: 1401px) 600px" width="3024" height="756" />


<img alt="Sunset over South Park" class="full-width-image" src="/generated/assets/images/2023-06-11-sunset-600-572bdcbd3.webp" srcset="/generated/assets/images/2023-06-11-sunset-480-572bdcbd3.webp 480w, /generated/assets/images/2023-06-11-sunset-600-572bdcbd3.webp 600w, /generated/assets/images/2023-06-11-sunset-720-572bdcbd3.webp 720w, /generated/assets/images/2023-06-11-sunset-900-572bdcbd3.webp 900w, /generated/assets/images/2023-06-11-sunset-1080-572bdcbd3.webp 1080w, /generated/assets/images/2023-06-11-sunset-1260-572bdcbd3.webp 1260w, /generated/assets/images/2023-06-11-sunset-1440-572bdcbd3.webp 1440w, /generated/assets/images/2023-06-11-sunset-1800-572bdcbd3.webp 1800w, /generated/assets/images/2023-06-11-sunset-2160-572bdcbd3.webp 2160w, /generated/assets/images/2023-06-11-sunset-3840-572bdcbd3.webp 3840w" sizes="(max-width: 600px) 100vw, (max-width: 1000px) 600px, (max-width: 1400px) 600px, (min-width: 1401px) 600px" width="4028" height="1008" />


<img alt="Reservoir" class="full-width-image" src="/generated/assets/images/2023-09-23-reservoir-600-c2bdd9a9b.webp" srcset="/generated/assets/images/2023-09-23-reservoir-480-c2bdd9a9b.webp 480w, /generated/assets/images/2023-09-23-reservoir-600-c2bdd9a9b.webp 600w, /generated/assets/images/2023-09-23-reservoir-720-c2bdd9a9b.webp 720w, /generated/assets/images/2023-09-23-reservoir-900-c2bdd9a9b.webp 900w, /generated/assets/images/2023-09-23-reservoir-1080-c2bdd9a9b.webp 1080w, /generated/assets/images/2023-09-23-reservoir-1260-c2bdd9a9b.webp 1260w, /generated/assets/images/2023-09-23-reservoir-1440-c2bdd9a9b.webp 1440w, /generated/assets/images/2023-09-23-reservoir-1800-c2bdd9a9b.webp 1800w, /generated/assets/images/2023-09-23-reservoir-2160-c2bdd9a9b.webp 2160w, /generated/assets/images/2023-09-23-reservoir-2973-c2bdd9a9b.webp 2973w" sizes="(max-width: 600px) 100vw, (max-width: 1000px) 600px, (max-width: 1400px) 600px, (min-width: 1401px) 600px" width="2973" height="744" />


<img alt="Maths Institute" class="full-width-image" src="/generated/assets/images/2023-12-02-night-3-600-b80411ff5.webp" srcset="/generated/assets/images/2023-12-02-night-3-480-b80411ff5.webp 480w, /generated/assets/images/2023-12-02-night-3-600-b80411ff5.webp 600w, /generated/assets/images/2023-12-02-night-3-720-b80411ff5.webp 720w, /generated/assets/images/2023-12-02-night-3-900-b80411ff5.webp 900w, /generated/assets/images/2023-12-02-night-3-1080-b80411ff5.webp 1080w, /generated/assets/images/2023-12-02-night-3-1260-b80411ff5.webp 1260w, /generated/assets/images/2023-12-02-night-3-1440-b80411ff5.webp 1440w, /generated/assets/images/2023-12-02-night-3-1800-b80411ff5.webp 1800w, /generated/assets/images/2023-12-02-night-3-2160-b80411ff5.webp 2160w, /generated/assets/images/2023-12-02-night-3-3620-b80411ff5.webp 3620w" sizes="(max-width: 600px) 100vw, (max-width: 1000px) 600px, (max-width: 1400px) 600px, (min-width: 1401px) 600px" width="3620" height="905" />


<img alt="Maths Institute" class="full-width-image" src="/generated/assets/images/2024-01-06-chch-600-ca091cae7.webp" srcset="/generated/assets/images/2024-01-06-chch-480-ca091cae7.webp 480w, /generated/assets/images/2024-01-06-chch-600-ca091cae7.webp 600w, /generated/assets/images/2024-01-06-chch-720-ca091cae7.webp 720w, /generated/assets/images/2024-01-06-chch-900-ca091cae7.webp 900w, /generated/assets/images/2024-01-06-chch-1080-ca091cae7.webp 1080w, /generated/assets/images/2024-01-06-chch-1260-ca091cae7.webp 1260w, /generated/assets/images/2024-01-06-chch-1440-ca091cae7.webp 1440w, /generated/assets/images/2024-01-06-chch-1800-ca091cae7.webp 1800w, /generated/assets/images/2024-01-06-chch-2160-ca091cae7.webp 2160w, /generated/assets/images/2024-01-06-chch-2590-ca091cae7.webp 2590w" sizes="(max-width: 600px) 100vw, (max-width: 1000px) 600px, (max-width: 1400px) 600px, (min-width: 1401px) 600px" width="2590" height="648" />


<img class="full-width-image" src="/generated/assets/images/2024-03-09-600-84a6178f0.webp" srcset="/generated/assets/images/2024-03-09-480-84a6178f0.webp 480w, /generated/assets/images/2024-03-09-600-84a6178f0.webp 600w, /generated/assets/images/2024-03-09-720-84a6178f0.webp 720w, /generated/assets/images/2024-03-09-900-84a6178f0.webp 900w, /generated/assets/images/2024-03-09-1080-84a6178f0.webp 1080w, /generated/assets/images/2024-03-09-1260-84a6178f0.webp 1260w, /generated/assets/images/2024-03-09-1440-84a6178f0.webp 1440w, /generated/assets/images/2024-03-09-1800-84a6178f0.webp 1800w, /generated/assets/images/2024-03-09-2160-84a6178f0.webp 2160w, /generated/assets/images/2024-03-09-3840-84a6178f0.webp 3840w" sizes="(max-width: 600px) 100vw, (max-width: 1000px) 600px, (max-width: 1400px) 600px, (min-width: 1401px) 600px" width="4032" height="1008" />


<img class="full-width-image" src="/generated/assets/images/2024-04-12-pic-600-0e5aab059.webp" srcset="/generated/assets/images/2024-04-12-pic-480-0e5aab059.webp 480w, /generated/assets/images/2024-04-12-pic-600-0e5aab059.webp 600w, /generated/assets/images/2024-04-12-pic-720-0e5aab059.webp 720w, /generated/assets/images/2024-04-12-pic-900-0e5aab059.webp 900w, /generated/assets/images/2024-04-12-pic-1080-0e5aab059.webp 1080w, /generated/assets/images/2024-04-12-pic-1260-0e5aab059.webp 1260w, /generated/assets/images/2024-04-12-pic-1440-0e5aab059.webp 1440w, /generated/assets/images/2024-04-12-pic-1800-0e5aab059.webp 1800w, /generated/assets/images/2024-04-12-pic-2160-0e5aab059.webp 2160w, /generated/assets/images/2024-04-12-pic-3840-0e5aab059.webp 3840w" sizes="(max-width: 600px) 100vw, (max-width: 1000px) 600px, (max-width: 1400px) 600px, (min-width: 1401px) 600px" width="4012" height="1003" />


<img class="full-width-image" src="/generated/assets/images/2025-04-27-london-900-d1088a791.webp" srcset="/generated/assets/images/2025-04-27-london-480-d1088a791.webp 480w, /generated/assets/images/2025-04-27-london-600-d1088a791.webp 600w, /generated/assets/images/2025-04-27-london-720-d1088a791.webp 720w, /generated/assets/images/2025-04-27-london-900-d1088a791.webp 900w, /generated/assets/images/2025-04-27-london-1080-d1088a791.webp 1080w, /generated/assets/images/2025-04-27-london-1260-d1088a791.webp 1260w, /generated/assets/images/2025-04-27-london-1440-d1088a791.webp 1440w, /generated/assets/images/2025-04-27-london-1800-d1088a791.webp 1800w, /generated/assets/images/2025-04-27-london-2160-d1088a791.webp 2160w, /generated/assets/images/2025-04-27-london-3840-d1088a791.webp 3840w" sizes="(max-width: 600px) 100vw, (max-width: 1000px) 600px, (max-width: 1400px) 950px, (min-width: 1401px) 1200px" width="3982" height="996" />


<img class="full-width-image" src="/generated/assets/images/2024-06-15-600-e495fcf92.webp" srcset="/generated/assets/images/2024-06-15-480-e495fcf92.webp 480w, /generated/assets/images/2024-06-15-600-e495fcf92.webp 600w, /generated/assets/images/2024-06-15-720-e495fcf92.webp 720w, /generated/assets/images/2024-06-15-900-e495fcf92.webp 900w, /generated/assets/images/2024-06-15-1080-e495fcf92.webp 1080w, /generated/assets/images/2024-06-15-1260-e495fcf92.webp 1260w, /generated/assets/images/2024-06-15-1440-e495fcf92.webp 1440w, /generated/assets/images/2024-06-15-1800-e495fcf92.webp 1800w, /generated/assets/images/2024-06-15-2160-e495fcf92.webp 2160w, /generated/assets/images/2024-06-15-3840-e495fcf92.webp 3840w" sizes="(max-width: 600px) 100vw, (max-width: 1000px) 600px, (max-width: 1400px) 600px, (min-width: 1401px) 600px" width="4032" height="1008" />


<img class="full-width-image" src="/generated/assets/images/2024-11-01-cars-600-54366757a.jpg" srcset="/generated/assets/images/2024-11-01-cars-480-54366757a.webp 480w, /generated/assets/images/2024-11-01-cars-600-54366757a.webp 600w, /generated/assets/images/2024-11-01-cars-720-54366757a.webp 720w, /generated/assets/images/2024-11-01-cars-900-54366757a.webp 900w, /generated/assets/images/2024-11-01-cars-1080-54366757a.webp 1080w, /generated/assets/images/2024-11-01-cars-1260-54366757a.webp 1260w, /generated/assets/images/2024-11-01-cars-1440-54366757a.webp 1440w, /generated/assets/images/2024-11-01-cars-1800-54366757a.webp 1800w, /generated/assets/images/2024-11-01-cars-2160-54366757a.webp 2160w, /generated/assets/images/2024-11-01-cars-3840-54366757a.webp 3840w" sizes="(max-width: 600px) 100vw, (max-width: 1000px) 600px, (max-width: 1400px) 600px, (min-width: 1401px) 600px" width="4024" height="1006" />


<img class="full-width-image" src="/generated/assets/images/2025-06-21-wytham-600-40407f910.webp" srcset="/generated/assets/images/2025-06-21-wytham-480-40407f910.webp 480w, /generated/assets/images/2025-06-21-wytham-600-40407f910.webp 600w, /generated/assets/images/2025-06-21-wytham-720-40407f910.webp 720w, /generated/assets/images/2025-06-21-wytham-900-40407f910.webp 900w, /generated/assets/images/2025-06-21-wytham-1080-40407f910.webp 1080w, /generated/assets/images/2025-06-21-wytham-1260-40407f910.webp 1260w, /generated/assets/images/2025-06-21-wytham-1440-40407f910.webp 1440w, /generated/assets/images/2025-06-21-wytham-1800-40407f910.webp 1800w, /generated/assets/images/2025-06-21-wytham-2160-40407f910.webp 2160w, /generated/assets/images/2025-06-21-wytham-3840-40407f910.webp 3840w" sizes="(max-width: 600px) 100vw, (max-width: 1000px) 600px, (max-width: 1400px) 600px, (min-width: 1401px) 600px" width="4026" height="1008" />


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</div>]]></content><author><name>Toby Lam</name></author><category term="Life" /><category term="Life@Oxford" /><summary type="html"><![CDATA[]]></summary></entry><entry><title type="html">Norwegian Wood - Haruki Murakami</title><link href="https://tobylam.xyz/2025/06/15/norwegian-wood" rel="alternate" type="text/html" title="Norwegian Wood - Haruki Murakami" /><published>2025-06-15T00:00:00+08:00</published><updated>2025-06-15T00:00:00+08:00</updated><id>https://tobylam.xyz/2025/06/15/norwegian-wood</id><content type="html" xml:base="https://tobylam.xyz/2025/06/15/norwegian-wood"><![CDATA[<p>“They turn 20 or 21 and all of a sudden they start having these concrete ideas. They get super- realistic. And when that happens, everything that seemed so sweet and loveable about them begins to look ordinary and depressing.”</p>

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<p>Below are a couple of my favorite excerpts from the book that can be savoured without context.</p>

<p>A relative of mine once said the best thing about work was getting to use skills that had never been appreciated when they were growing up. Midori shares a similar feeling about cooking:</p>

<blockquote>
  <p>“It wasn’t easy,” said Midori with a sigh, “growing up in a house where nobody gave a damn about food. I’d tell them I wanted to buy decent knives and pots and they wouldn’t give me the money. “What we have now is good enough,’ they’d say, but I’d tell them that was crazy, you couldn’t bone a fish with the kind of flimsy knives we had at home, so they’d say, “What the hell do you have to bone a fish for?’ It was hopeless trying to communicate with them. I saved up my allowance and bought real professional knives and pots and strainers and stuff. Can you believe it? Here’s a 15-year-old girl pinching pennies to buy strainers and whetstones and tempura pots when all the other girls at school are getting huge allowances and buying beautiful dresses and shoes. Don’t you feel sorry for me?</p>
</blockquote>

<p>Reading about Midori caring for her father in the hospital really struck me. Maybe we’d treat each other better if we took more time to think about what we say.</p>

<blockquote>
  <p>Relatives come to visit and they eat with me here, and they always leave half their food, just like you. And they always say, “Oh, Midori, it’s wonderful you’ve got such a healthy appetite. I’m too upset to eat.’ But get serious, I’m the one who’s actually here taking care of the patient! They just have to drop by and show a little sympathy. I’m the one who wipes up the shit and collects the phlegm and mops the brows. If sympathy was all it took to clean up shit, I’d have 50 times as much sympathy as anybody else! Instead, they see me eating all my food and they give me this look and say, “Oh Midori, you’ve got such a healthy appetite.’ What do they think I am, a donkey pulling a cart? They’re old enough to know how the world really works, so why are they so stupid? It’s easy to talk big, but the important thing is whether or not you clean up the shit. I can be hurt, you know. I can get as exhausted as anyone else. I can feel so bad I want to cry, too. I mean, you try watching a gang of doctors get together and cut open somebody’s head when there’s no hope of saving them, and stirring things up in there, and doing it again and again, and every time they do it it makes the person worse and a little bit crazier, and see how you like it!</p>
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<p>A very typical post-uni discussion:</p>

<blockquote>
  <p>Itoh was from Nagasaki. He had a girlfriend he would sleep with whenever he went home, he said, but things weren’t going too well with her lately.</p>

  <p>“You know what girls are like,” he said. “They turn 20 or 21 and all of a sudden they start having these concrete ideas. They get super- realistic. And when that happens, everything that seemed so sweet and loveable about them begins to look ordinary and depressing. Now when I see her, usually after we do it, she starts asking me, “What are you going to do after you graduate?”’</p>

  <p>“Well, what are you going to do after you graduate?” I asked him. Munching on a mouthful of smelt, he shook his head. “What can I do? I’m in oil painting! Start worrying about stuff like that, and nobody’s going to study oil painting! You don’t do it to feed yourself. So she’s like, “Why don’t you come back to Nagasaki and become an art teacher?’ She’s planning to be an English teacher.”</p>

  <p>“You’re not so crazy about her any more, are you?”</p>

  <p>“That just about sums it up,” Itoh admitted. “And who on earth wants to be an art teacher? I’m not gonna spend my whole fuckin’ life teaching teenaged monkeys how to draw!”</p>

  <p>“That’s beside the point,” I said. “Don’t you think you ought to break up with her? For both your sakes.”</p>

  <p>“Sure I do. But I don’t know how to say it to her. She’s planning to spend her life with me. How the hell can I say, “Hey, we ought to split up. I don’t like you any more’?”</p>
</blockquote>

<p>The excerpt below sent shivers down my spine—a reminder of how deeply we can hurt others without meaning to, especially when we’re already burdened by pain from elsewhere. Perhaps we really must live firmly in the present.</p>

<blockquote>
  <p>I’m writing this letter to you while you’re off buying drinks. This is the first time in my life I’ve ever written a letter to somebody sitting next to me on a bench, but I feel it’s the only way I can get through to you. I mean, you’re hardly listening to anything I say. Am I right?</p>

  <p>Do jou realize you did something terrible to me today? You never even noticed that my hairstyle had changed, did you? I’ve been working on it forever, trying to grow it out, and finally, at the end of last week, I managed to get it into a style you could actually call girlish, but you never even noticed. It was looking pretty good, so I thought I’d give you a little shock when you saw me for the first time after so long, but it didn’t even register with you. Don’t you think that’s awful? I bet you can’t even remember what I was wearing today. Hey, I’m a girl! So what if you’ve got something on your mind? You can spare me one decent look! All you had to say was “Cute hair”, and I would have been able to forgive you for being sunk in a million thoughts, but no!</p>

  <p>Which is why I’m going to tell you a lie. It’s not true that I have to meet my sister at the Ginza. I was planning to spend the night at your place. I even brought my pyjamas with me. It’s true. I’ve got my pyjamas and a toothbrush in my bag. I’m such an idiot! I mean, you never even invited me over to see your new place. Oh well, what the hell, you obviously want to be alone, so I’ll leave you alone. Go ahead and think away to your heart’s content!</p>

  <p>But don’t get me wrong. I’m not totally mad at you. I’m just sad. You were so nice to me when I was having my problems, but now that you’re having yours, it seems there’s not a thing I can do for you. You’re all locked up in that little world of yours, and when I try knocking on the door, you just sort of look up for a second and go right back inside.</p>

  <p>So now I see you coming back with our drinks - walking and thinking. I was hoping you’d trip, but you didn’t. Now you’re sitting next to me drinking your Coke. I was holding out one last hope that you’d notice and say “Hey, your hair’s changed!” but no. If you had, I would have tom up this letter and said: “Let’s go to your place. I’ll make you a nice dinner. And afterwards we can go to bed and cuddle.” But you’re about as sensitive as a steel plate. Goodbye.</p>

  <p>PS. Please don’t talk to me next time we meet.</p>
</blockquote>]]></content><author><name>Toby Lam</name></author><category term="Reviews" /><category term="Book reviews" /><summary type="html"><![CDATA[Excerpts I liked]]></summary></entry><entry><title type="html">War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy</title><link href="https://tobylam.xyz/2025/06/03/war-and-peace" rel="alternate" type="text/html" title="War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy" /><published>2025-06-03T00:00:00+08:00</published><updated>2025-06-03T00:00:00+08:00</updated><id>https://tobylam.xyz/2025/06/03/war-and-peace</id><content type="html" xml:base="https://tobylam.xyz/2025/06/03/war-and-peace"><![CDATA[<p>“Natásha and Pierre, left alone, also began to talk as only a husband and wife can talk, that is, with extraordinary clearness and rapidity, understanding and expressing each other’s thoughts in ways contrary to all rules of logic, without premises, deductions, or conclusions, and in a quite peculiar way.”</p>

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<p>Below are a couple of my favorite excerpts from the book. I’ll refer to the <a href="https://www.gutenberg.org/cache/epub/2600/pg2600-images.html">Maude translation</a>.</p>

<p>I liked the entirety of Book 8, Chapter 1. The following excerpt really captures the quote by Hideaki Anno that “Forfeiting ones goal leads to despair, and is a sickness that can prove fatal” and how one lives under that condition.</p>

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  <p>He read, and read everything that came to hand. On coming home, while his valets were still taking off his things, he picked up a book and began to read. From reading he passed to sleeping, from sleeping to gossip in drawing rooms of the club, from gossip to carousals and women; from carousals back to gossip, reading, and wine. Drinking became more and more a physical and also a moral necessity. Though the doctors warned him that with his corpulence wine was dangerous for him, he drank a great deal. He was only quite at ease when having poured several glasses of wine mechanically into his large mouth he felt a pleasant warmth in his body, an amiability toward all his fellows, and a readiness to respond superficially to every idea without probing it deeply. Only after emptying a bottle or two did he feel dimly that the terribly tangled skein of life which previously had terrified him was not as dreadful as he had thought. He was always conscious of some aspect of that skein, as with a buzzing in his head after dinner or supper he chatted or listened to conversation or read. But under the influence of wine he said to himself: “It doesn’t matter. I’ll get it unraveled. I have a solution ready, but have no time now—I’ll think it all out later on!” But the later on never came.</p>
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<p>Alluding to the idleness, an earlier chapter talks of it (Book 7, Chapter 1)</p>

<blockquote>
  <p>The Bible legend tells us that the absence of labor—idleness—was a condition of the first man’s blessedness before the Fall. Fallen man has retained a love of idleness, but the curse weighs on the race not only because we have to seek our bread in the sweat of our brows, but because our moral nature is such that we cannot be both idle and at ease. An inner voice tells us we are in the wrong if we are idle. If man could find a state in which he felt that though idle he was fulfilling his duty, he would have found one of the conditions of man’s primitive blessedness. And such a state of obligatory and irreproachable idleness is the lot of a whole class—the military. The chief attraction of military service has consisted and will consist in this compulsory and irreproachable idleness.</p>
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<p>The oft-cited passage of how Nikolai Rostov is in great stress fighting on a bridge while his mates are wounded and he is desparate to escape, takes a moment to look sideways, orthogonal to the bridge and his struggles, reminds me of how everyone in Bong Joon Ho’s Snowpiercer is always looking forward or backward, with only Namgoong and Yona daring to look sideways.</p>

<blockquote>
  <p>Nicholas Rostóv turned away and, as if searching for something, gazed into the distance, at the waters of the Danube, at the sky, and at the sun. How beautiful the sky looked; how blue, how calm, and how deep! How bright and glorious was the setting sun! With what soft glitter the waters of the distant Danube shone. And fairer still were the faraway blue mountains beyond the river, the nunnery, the mysterious gorges, and the pine forests veiled in the mist of their summits… There was peace and happiness… “I should wish for nothing else, nothing, if only I were there,” thought Rostóv. “In myself alone and in that sunshine there is so much happiness; but here… groans, suffering, fear, and this uncertainty and hurry… There—they are shouting again, and again are all running back somewhere, and I shall run with them, and it, death, is here above me and around… Another instant and I shall never again see the sun, this water, that gorge!…”</p>
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<p>I once read a <a href="https://cherwell.org/2008/01/15/great-books-war-and-peace-by-leo-tolstoy/">review</a> of War and Peace in Cherwell how the book consists of the idea that “you should be able to find happiness in almost any situation, if you consider the world in a certain way”, and I found this quote to capture that quite perfectly.</p>

<blockquote>
  <p>He continually hurt Princess Mary’s feelings and tormented her, but it cost her no effort to forgive him. Could he be to blame toward her, or could her father, whom she knew loved her in spite of it all, be unjust? And what is justice? The princess never thought of that proud word “justice.” All the complex laws of man centered for her in one clear and simple law—the law of love and self-sacrifice taught us by Him who lovingly suffered for mankind though He Himself was God. What had she to do with the justice or injustice of other people? She had to endure and love, and that she did.</p>
</blockquote>

<p>Whenever I’m in a bad situation and wondering how I got here, I always think of Kutuzov asking himself “When was it decided?” When was it decided that I would be in such a bad situation now?</p>

<blockquote>
  <p>The question for him now was: “Have I really allowed Napoleon to reach Moscow, and when did I do so? When was it decided? Can it have been yesterday when I ordered Plátov to retreat, or was it the evening before, when I had a nap and told Bennigsen to issue orders? Or was it earlier still?… When, when was this terrible affair decided? Moscow must be abandoned. The army must retreat and the order to do so must be given.” To give that terrible order seemed to him equivalent to resigning the command of the army. And not only did he love power to which he was accustomed (the honours awarded to Prince Prozoróvski, under whom he had served in Turkey, galled him), but he was convinced that he was destined to save Russia and that that was why, against the Emperor’s wish and by the will of the people, he had been chosen commander in chief. He was convinced that he alone could maintain command of the army in these difficult circumstances, and that in all the world he alone could encounter the invincible Napoleon without fear, and he was horrified at the thought of the order he had to issue. But something had to be decided, and these conversations around him which were assuming too free a character must be stopped.</p>
</blockquote>

<p>The best thing about best friends is to talk contrary to all laws of reason:</p>

<blockquote>
  <p>Natásha and Pierre, left alone, also began to talk as only a husband and wife can talk, that is, with extraordinary clearness and rapidity, understanding and expressing each other’s thoughts in ways contrary to all rules of logic, without premises, deductions, or conclusions, and in a quite peculiar way. Natásha was so used to this kind of talk with her husband that for her it was the surest sign of something being wrong between them if Pierre followed a line of logical reasoning. When he began proving anything, or talking argumentatively and calmly and she, led on by his example, began to do the same, she knew that they were on the verge of a quarrel.</p>

  <p>From the moment they were alone and Natásha came up to him with wide-open happy eyes, and quickly seizing his head pressed it to her bosom, saying: “Now you are all mine, mine! You won’t escape!”—from that moment this conversation began, contrary to all the laws of logic and contrary to them because quite different subjects were talked about at one and the same time. This simultaneous discussion of many topics did not prevent a clear understanding but on the contrary was the surest sign that they fully understood one another.</p>

  <p>Just as in a dream when all is uncertain, unreasoning, and contradictory, except the feeling that guides the dream, so in this intercourse contrary to all laws of reason, the words themselves were not consecutive and clear but only the feeling that prompted them.</p>
</blockquote>]]></content><author><name>Toby Lam</name></author><category term="Reviews" /><category term="Book reviews" /><summary type="html"><![CDATA[Excerpts I liked]]></summary></entry><entry><title type="html">An Easter in UK and HK: Bookshops and Cinemas</title><link href="https://tobylam.xyz/2025/04/27/fourth-easter-in-oxford" rel="alternate" type="text/html" title="An Easter in UK and HK: Bookshops and Cinemas" /><published>2025-04-27T00:00:00+08:00</published><updated>2025-04-27T00:00:00+08:00</updated><id>https://tobylam.xyz/2025/04/27/fourth-easter-in-oxford</id><content type="html" xml:base="https://tobylam.xyz/2025/04/27/fourth-easter-in-oxford"><![CDATA[<div class="full-bleed">
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<h2 id="cambridge">Cambridge</h2>

<p>The <a href="https://maps.app.goo.gl/nQFHqBocw8f5Hg8h7">Cambridge University Press Bookshop</a> do be a gem at Cambirdge. I love the uniform aesthestics and the comprehensiveness of the <a href="https://www.cambridge.org/core/publications/collections/cambridge-companions">Cambridge Companions</a> on such a variety of topics in the humanities.</p>

<p>It’s a shame that the Oxford University Press bookshop <a href="https://www.oxfordmail.co.uk/news/19923908.oxford-university-press-bookshop-high-street-shut-forever/">shut forever</a> some time ago. <a href="https://maps.app.goo.gl/rBRxFLHK4tt2h5YR7">Blackwell’s</a> does have a nice collection of <a href="https://global.oup.com/academic/content/series/v/very-short-introductions-vsi/">Very Short Introductions</a> though.</p>

<h2 id="bfi-nft--london">BFI NFT @ London</h2>

<p>The BFI is well known for the IMAX theatre, but having recently been to Southbank’s NFT cinemas (NFT standing for National Film Theatre) to watch Mahjong by Edward Yang, I was pleasantly surprised by just how nice the experience was.</p>

<p>I sat in the dead center of the last row of NFT1 and I would wholeheartedly recommend it. The ceiling is never completely dark and you’re always aware that a this really is a shared experience. In contrast to the “shared experience” of the Minecraft movie, you do feel blessed that the people around you respect the arts.</p>

<p>The theatre is not that inclined and so it’s relatively easy for people in your front to block your view–best to sit at the last row so you don’t have to worry about your moving head blocking other people’s view as well. The rows are exceptionally long, perhaps the longest I’ve ever seen, which adds to the grandness of the place. Be sure to go to the loo before.</p>

<p>One could also find a <a href="https://www.forbes.com/sites/bennyhareven/2023/12/14/why-the-bfi-southbank-nft1-is-one-of-the-crown-jewels-of-the-london-film-scene/">nice review</a> of the BFI NFT by Forbes.</p>

<h2 id="hong-kong">Hong Kong</h2>

<p>It was hard not to react to the 13% biggest one day decline in the HS index since 1997. I was just reading The World in War by Niall Freugson:</p>

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  <p>Yet there was nothing anachronistic about the idea of empire in the 1930s. In a world without free trade, empires offered all kinds of advantages to those who had them. It was undoubtedly advantageous to Britain to be at the centre of a vaststerling bloc with a common currency and commontariffs. And what would Stalin’s Soviet Union have been if it had been confined within the historic frontiers of Muscovy, without the vast territories and resources of the Caucasus, Siberia and Central Asia?</p>
</blockquote>]]></content><author><name>Toby Lam</name></author><category term="Life" /><category term="Life@HongKong" /><summary type="html"><![CDATA[]]></summary></entry><entry><title type="html">Intersection - Liu Yi Chang</title><link href="https://tobylam.xyz/2024/12/31/intersection" rel="alternate" type="text/html" title="Intersection - Liu Yi Chang" /><published>2024-12-31T00:00:00+08:00</published><updated>2024-12-31T00:00:00+08:00</updated><id>https://tobylam.xyz/2024/12/31/intersection</id><content type="html" xml:base="https://tobylam.xyz/2024/12/31/intersection"><![CDATA[<p>A stream-of-consciousness short novel on the inner worlds of a man and a woman over the course of a day in 70s Hong Kong.</p>

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<p>The opening immediatedly showcases Hong Kong as an ever denser and vertical city,</p>

<blockquote>
  <p>Twenty years ago, Hong Kong’s population was only about 800,000; now, it was nearly fourmillion. Many of the remote districts had becomebustling resettlement areas. Old buildings had turned into skyscrapers.</p>
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<p>and the cynical forces of capital.</p>

<blockquote>
  <p>Chunyu Bai had never wanted to to move there. There was only one reason for this: the stability of the Hong Kong dollar.</p>
</blockquote>

<p>Themes of loneliness and escapism later emerge, containing much of the elements of the cyberpunk genre that suceeds it. It’s really no wonder such themes find their origins in Hong Kong—a city that epitomizes the allure and costs of urbanization. You find these themes in depictions of the degrading environment,</p>

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  <p>Odour assaulted her nose. It was the public toilet, which made every passer-by cover their nostrils with a handkerchief or their hand. Ah Xing did not like this side street because of the public toilet. Every time she passed it thoughts like this entered her mind: “When I get married and look for a flat, I must find one with a good location. There mustn’t be a public toilet nearby.”</p>
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<p>the off-world colonies,</p>

<blockquote>
  <p>“Satellite towns will certainly develop quickly and that means the construction of an underground railway will become an urgent task. Without an underground, people who live in satellite towns can only take private cars, taxis, buses or mini-buses if they work in the urban areas and this in turn will generate another problem—traffic congestion,” he thought.</p>
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<p>the escapism, whether into the past,</p>

<blockquote>
  <p>He could only look for his lost happiness in his memories. Yet, the memory of happiness was like a faded photograph, blurred and unreal. When he heard Yao Surong sing, he remembered those vanished years. Those bygone days were something he could only look at through a dusty window pane; something he could see, but couldn’t touch. And everything he saw was blurred and indistinct.</p>
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<p>or into the present,</p>

<blockquote>
  <p>Staring at the wedding gown, her eyes filled with envy. After she’d been staring for some time, a smile appeared on the manikin’s face. A manikin couldn’t smile. The smiling woman in the wedding gown was actually herself. The window before her suddenly became opaque and turned into a mirror. Ah Xing saw herself in the “mirror”, dressed in a white gauze wedding gown, as beautiful as a goddess.</p>
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<p>the capitalistic bravado,</p>

<blockquote>
  <p>“That guy has guts!” “Was he alone?” “He had a cleaver and a rock. He flashed the cleaver in front of the counter and smashed the showcase with the rock. He got away with jewellery worth tens of thousands of dollars!” “Tens of thousands of dollars!” “There were eye-witnesses. The robber only grabbed diamonds and jade.” “He sure has guts!” “If you’ve got the guts, you don’t have to pin your hopes on lottery tickets.” Ah Xing turned to look at the two men; one of them was holding a bamboo pole with lottery tickets fastened to it by clothes-pegs. He was a vendor of lottery tickets.</p>
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<p>It all seemed to be there.</p>

<p>Originally serialized in Chinese in the newspaper titled 對倒 and later translated into English by Nancy Li, this work is available <a href="https://www.cuhk.edu.hk/rct/pdf/e_outputs/b2930/v29&amp;30P084.pdf">for free online</a>. It was also later rewritten in a longer form <a href="https://read.99csw.com/book/10417/375462.html">here</a>.</p>]]></content><author><name>Toby Lam</name></author><category term="Reviews" /><summary type="html"><![CDATA[A short story]]></summary></entry><entry><title type="html">Tenth Term at Oxford: Fleeting Present</title><link href="https://tobylam.xyz/2024/12/07/tenth-term-at-oxford" rel="alternate" type="text/html" title="Tenth Term at Oxford: Fleeting Present" /><published>2024-12-07T00:00:00+08:00</published><updated>2024-12-07T00:00:00+08:00</updated><id>https://tobylam.xyz/2024/12/07/tenth-term-at-oxford</id><content type="html" xml:base="https://tobylam.xyz/2024/12/07/tenth-term-at-oxford"><![CDATA[<div class="full-bleed">
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<h2 id="fleeting-present">Fleeting present</h2>

<p>Since last year, I’ve known that by my fourth year, I wouldn’t care much about Oxford anymore. History has shown me that in the final year of anything, I can’t help but obsess over the future, losing sight of the fleeting present—and inevitably regretting it later.</p>

<p>It’s hard not to admire the pure, coffee-to-math machines among the first- and second-years. That admiration fades as quickly as I remember how nostalgia polishes the past–I was never one of those “coffee-to-math” machines; back then, I was just preoccupied with simpler, once-daunting but now trivial things like cooking and cycling among cars.</p>

<p>Recently I read something about how</p>

<blockquote>
  <p>少年时代的情感，大概是最令人珍惜的，因为比较纯洁，没有被社会上各种物质的、文化的、生活的、人生的、金钱的、欲望的种种东西所波及。</p>

  <p>The emotions of youth are probably the most cherished because they are purer, untainted by the various material, cultural, life, career, money, and desire-related things in society. —Wang Huning,  member of the CCP’s Politburo Standing Committee.</p>
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<p>I suppose the relentless modern drive for self-improvement often makes us overly critical when reflecting on the past, rather than appreciating its purity. It’s only when I interact with younger people, feeling compelled to be optimistic and helpful for their sake, that I become less harsh on myself.</p>

<h2 id="quantifying-decades">Quantifying decades</h2>

<p>Nearly a decade ago, there was a famous Hong Kong film called Ten Years (《十年》), which imagined Hong Kong in 2025, with freedoms steadily eroding under the increasing influence of the Chinese government.</p>

<p>Recently, I was also reminded that it’s been 20 years since Modern Love began in The New York Times, a column I’ve followed avidly for about five years. It makes me wonder: 20 years from now, how will I look back on everything I’ve been creating here?</p>

<p>Lately, I keep hearing that we really only have around 40 years of work in our lives—-some 80,000 hours. Reducing life to numbers like this feels offputtingly accepted nowadays. It makes me think of the so many people around me rushing to quant. Am I going to be the one quantifying the world, or is the world going to quantify me?</p>

<h2 id="1x-or-10x">1x or 10x?</h2>

<p>There seems to be a theme in many domains that you should aim for either 1x or 10x effort. Anything in between falls into the valley of death. This idea has always seemed reasonable to me in the context of startups or creative projects, but I was surprised to see it applied to planning:</p>

<blockquote>
  <p>(Plan) 6 months or 30 years (ahead) … It’s a little bit shortsighted and a little bit not. But any other approach guarantees everything you release is already obsolete. —<a href="https://facebookcollection.wordpress.com/wp-content/uploads/2018/10/facebooks-little-red-book-office-of-ben-barry.pdf">Facebook</a></p>
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<p>or meetings:</p>

<blockquote>
  <p>I find most meetings are best scheduled for 15-20 minutes, or 2 hours.  The default of 1 hour is usually wrong, and leads to a lot of wasted time. —<a href="https://blog.samaltman.com/productivity">Sam Altman</a></p>
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<p>or hobbies:</p>

<blockquote>
  <p>Actually, I jade very quickly. Once is usually enough. Either once only, or every day. If you do something once it’s exciting, and if you do it every day it’s exciting. But if you do it, say, twice or just almost every day, it’s not good any more. Nothing in-between is as good as once or every day. —<a href="https://g.co/kgs/NoS3Amm">Andy Warhol</a></p>
</blockquote>

<p>or annual gdp growth and number of graduates:</p>

<blockquote>
  <p>Allow me a detour first. Of late, I have developed a wonkish interest in what we might call the “perfect wrong number”. For example, annual GDP growth of about 1 per cent is not good enough to please voters but not bad enough to make them accept painful economic reform. At 60mn to 84mn, the populations of Britain, France, Italy and Germany are too big to govern well (unlike Denmark) but not big enough to shape world events (unlike China).</p>

  <p>To press on with this reverse-Goldilocks theme, the number of graduates is perfectly wrong. There are enough to make people who don’t attend university feel excluded, but not enough to constitute an electoral plurality. Graduates can culturally dominate the rest of society for four or five years at a time, imposing their values and campus-honed identity jargon, then lose on polling day. Just under 40 per cent of Americans have done four years of college: enough to provoke, not enough to prevail. The way out is to increase the share much further or drastically cut it. One of these plans seems infeasible, the other retrograde. —<a href="https://www.ft.com/content/9b071b7a-7cef-4244-ab2c-8d4394fd5abf">Janah Ganesh</a></p>
</blockquote>

<hr />

<p>A friend of mine recently commented that I shouldn’t try to quantify the personal aspects of my life as well. I reassured them that I only turn to numbers when speaking in abstractions–there are almost no quantities in my personal journals.</p>

<p>I do wonder if the world is getting more quantative or less. We’ve been promised of a future where STEM (and recently coding) take a backseat, freeing us to focus entirely on creativity—but that day never seems to come. Over 200 years ago John Adams wrote</p>

<blockquote>
  <p>Our sons ought to study mathematics and philosophy, geography, natural history and naval architecture, navigation, commerce and agriculture in order to give their children a right to study painting, poetry, music, architecture, statuary, tapestry and porcelain. —John Adams</p>
</blockquote>

<p>I doubt LLM weights and quant algorithms will be the final frontier. You can’t wait for the next generation to be creative.</p>]]></content><author><name>Toby Lam</name></author><category term="Life" /><category term="Life@Oxford" /><summary type="html"><![CDATA[]]></summary></entry><entry><title type="html">Read text nicely</title><link href="https://tobylam.xyz/2024/10/20/reading-mode" rel="alternate" type="text/html" title="Read text nicely" /><published>2024-10-20T00:00:00+08:00</published><updated>2024-10-20T00:00:00+08:00</updated><id>https://tobylam.xyz/2024/10/20/reading-mode</id><content type="html" xml:base="https://tobylam.xyz/2024/10/20/reading-mode"><![CDATA[<p><img class="full-width-image" src="/generated/assets/images/2024-10-20-reading-900-d53f3ec7b.webp" srcset="/generated/assets/images/2024-10-20-reading-480-d53f3ec7b.webp 480w, /generated/assets/images/2024-10-20-reading-600-d53f3ec7b.webp 600w, /generated/assets/images/2024-10-20-reading-720-d53f3ec7b.webp 720w, /generated/assets/images/2024-10-20-reading-900-d53f3ec7b.webp 900w, /generated/assets/images/2024-10-20-reading-1080-d53f3ec7b.webp 1080w, /generated/assets/images/2024-10-20-reading-1260-d53f3ec7b.webp 1260w, /generated/assets/images/2024-10-20-reading-1440-d53f3ec7b.webp 1440w, /generated/assets/images/2024-10-20-reading-1800-d53f3ec7b.webp 1800w, /generated/assets/images/2024-10-20-reading-2160-d53f3ec7b.webp 2160w, /generated/assets/images/2024-10-20-reading-2574-d53f3ec7b.webp 2574w" sizes="(max-width: 600px) 100vw, (max-width: 1000px) 600px, (max-width: 1400px) 950px, (min-width: 1401px) 1200px" width="2574" height="450" /></p>

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<blockquote>
  <p><a href="https://web.getmatter.com">Matter</a> solved 99% of this problem for me. Use that instead!</p>
</blockquote>

<p>You can check out the reader at <a href="/reader">tobylam.xyz/reader</a>!</p>

<h2 id="main-features">Main Features</h2>

<ul><li><b>Adjust the font size</b>: Select <svg xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg" height="16px" viewBox="0 -960 960 960" width="16px" fill="black"><path d="m40-200 210-560h100l210 560h-96l-51-143H187l-51 143H40Zm176-224h168l-82-232h-4l-82 232Zm504 104v-120H600v-80h120v-120h80v120h120v80H800v120h-80Z" /></svg> to increase the font size and <svg xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg" height="16px" viewBox="0 -960 960 960" width="16px" fill="black"><path d="m40-200 210-560h100l210 560h-96l-51-143H187l-51 143H40Zm176-224h168l-82-232h-4l-82 232Zm384-16v-80h320v80H600Z" /></svg> to decrease it.</li><li><b>Cycle through theme</b>: Select <svg xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg" height="16px" viewBox="0 -960 960 960" width="16px" fill="black"><path d="M480-120q-150 0-255-105T120-480q0-150 105-255t255-105q14 0 27.5 1t26.5 3q-41 29-65.5 75.5T444-660q0 90 63 153t153 63q55 0 101-24.5t75-65.5q2 13 3 26.5t1 27.5q0 150-105 255T480-120Zm0-80q88 0 158-48.5T740-375q-20 5-40 8t-40 3q-123 0-209.5-86.5T364-660q0-20 3-40t8-40q-78 32-126.5 102T200-480q0 116 82 198t198 82Zm-10-270Z" /></svg> to cycle between flux, dark and normal theme </li><li><b>Change the width of the content</b>: Drag on the borders of the box</li><li><b>Change the font and line-width</b>: Select from drop-down menu next to <svg xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg" height="16px" viewBox="0 -960 960 960" width="16px" fill="black"><path d="M168-144q-29.7 0-50.85-21.15Q96-186.3 96-216v-600l64.32 64 63.36-64L288-752l64.32-64 63.36 64L480-816l64.32 64 63.36-64L672-752l64.32-64 63.36 64L864-816v600q0 29.7-21.15 50.85Q821.7-144 792-144H168Zm0-72h276v-216H168v216Zm348 0h276v-72H516v72Zm0-144h276v-72H516v72ZM168-504h624v-144H168v144Z" /></svg></li><li><b>Change the way text is parsed</b>: Select from drop-down menu next to <svg xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg" height="16px" viewBox="0 -960 960 960" width="16px" fill="black"><path d="M384-240v-72h432v72H384Zm0-204v-72h432v72H384ZM144-648v-72h672v72H144Z" /></svg></li></ul>]]></content><author><name>Toby Lam</name></author><category term="Tech" /><summary type="html"><![CDATA[]]></summary></entry><entry><title type="html">Surface plotter that lets you sketch on surfaces</title><link href="https://tobylam.xyz/2024/10/16/three-js-plotter" rel="alternate" type="text/html" title="Surface plotter that lets you sketch on surfaces" /><published>2024-10-16T00:00:00+08:00</published><updated>2024-10-16T00:00:00+08:00</updated><id>https://tobylam.xyz/2024/10/16/three-js-plotter</id><content type="html" xml:base="https://tobylam.xyz/2024/10/16/three-js-plotter"><![CDATA[<div class="full-bleed">
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<p>You can check out the plotter at <a href="/3dplotter">tobylam.xyz/3dplotter</a>!</p>

<h2 id="main-features">Main features</h2>

<ul>
  <li>Plot functions from \(\mathbb{R}^2\) to \(\mathbb{R}^3\)
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      <li>Sketch any curve on the UV map and see the image of that curve on the surface in real time</li>
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  <li>Supports one time parameter for animations</li>
  <li>Works on Desktop / Mobile browsers</li>
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<h2 id="comments">Comments</h2>

<p>A spiritual successor to <a href="/2023/11/24/complex-plotter">my complex function plotter</a>. A lot of work still need to be done like polishing / writing documentation etc. Email me if you are interested in this project!</p>]]></content><author><name>Toby Lam</name></author><category term="Tools" /><summary type="html"><![CDATA[Sketch curves and see them on surfaces in real time!]]></summary></entry><entry><title type="html">A collection of music videos that I like</title><link href="https://tobylam.xyz/2024/10/12/music-videos-i-like" rel="alternate" type="text/html" title="A collection of music videos that I like" /><published>2024-10-12T00:00:00+08:00</published><updated>2024-10-12T00:00:00+08:00</updated><id>https://tobylam.xyz/2024/10/12/music-videos-i-like</id><content type="html" xml:base="https://tobylam.xyz/2024/10/12/music-videos-i-like"><![CDATA[<p>There’s just something about these music videos that hits different.</p>

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<h2 id="freestyle---прощай-навеки-последняя-любовь">Freestyle - Прощай навеки, последняя любовь</h2>

<iframe width="600" height="337.5" src="https://www.youtube.com/embed/XcO8KV4gSlA?si=DOQNIm2HVpIpI60W" title="YouTube video player" frameborder="0" allow="accelerometer; autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture; web-share" referrerpolicy="strict-origin-when-cross-origin" allowfullscreen=""></iframe>

<h2 id="stamp---นักเลงคีย์บอร์ด">STAMP - นักเลงคีย์บอร์ด</h2>

<iframe width="600" height="337.5" src="https://www.youtube.com/embed/ll1K7abe-ek?si=-zc4T0TtU4hJHgQa" title="YouTube video player" frameborder="0" allow="accelerometer; autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture; web-share" referrerpolicy="strict-origin-when-cross-origin" allowfullscreen=""></iframe>

<h2 id="michael-nyman---chasing-sheep-is-best-left-to-shepherds">Michael Nyman - Chasing Sheep Is Best Left To Shepherds</h2>

<iframe width="600" height="337.5" src="https://www.youtube.com/embed/b8w0n7cSSE0?si=RQm_apurSnfgL5GN" title="YouTube video player" frameborder="0" allow="accelerometer; autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture; web-share" referrerpolicy="strict-origin-when-cross-origin" allowfullscreen=""></iframe>

<h2 id="高中正義---beleza-pura">高中正義 - Beleza Pura</h2>

<iframe width="600" height="337.5" src="https://www.youtube.com/embed/cTDK5Bluh5A?si=zReYRYH-RDjl9mob" title="YouTube video player" frameborder="0" allow="accelerometer; autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture; web-share" referrerpolicy="strict-origin-when-cross-origin" allowfullscreen=""></iframe>

<p>Some other music videos I also like a lot!</p>

<h2 id="戀愛交叉打開信箱藍色憂鬱黑色午夜monica-跨越97演唱會---張國榮">戀愛交叉+打開信箱+藍色憂鬱+黑色午夜+Monica-跨越97演唱會 - 張國榮</h2>

<iframe width="600" height="337.5" src="https://www.youtube.com/embed/hVGqY6b_dJ8?si=ggEA6R4JKSjytpmm" title="YouTube video player" frameborder="0" allow="accelerometer; autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture; web-share" referrerpolicy="strict-origin-when-cross-origin" allowfullscreen=""></iframe>

<h2 id="fallen-angels-1995---ending">Fallen Angels (1995) - Ending</h2>

<iframe width="600" height="337.5" src="https://www.youtube.com/embed/OQN6Gkv4JRU?si=JmVtsqCDvG64--TU" title="YouTube video player" frameborder="0" allow="accelerometer; autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture; web-share" referrerpolicy="strict-origin-when-cross-origin" allowfullscreen=""></iframe>]]></content><author><name>Toby Lam</name></author><category term="Personal" /><summary type="html"><![CDATA[There’s just something about these music videos that hits different.]]></summary></entry><entry><title type="html">A Summer in Hong Kong: Adapting to Change</title><link href="https://tobylam.xyz/2024/09/22/summer-in-hong-kong" rel="alternate" type="text/html" title="A Summer in Hong Kong: Adapting to Change" /><published>2024-09-22T00:00:00+08:00</published><updated>2024-09-22T00:00:00+08:00</updated><id>https://tobylam.xyz/2024/09/22/summer-in-hong-kong</id><content type="html" xml:base="https://tobylam.xyz/2024/09/22/summer-in-hong-kong"><![CDATA[<div class="full-bleed">
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<h2 id="adaptability">Adaptability</h2>

<p>Despite not having been in HK at all for almost 3 years, I adapted to HK much quicker than I thought I would. It turns out that 18 years of muscle memory just gets built in you and can get reactivated very quickly. I think this realisation has made me a lot more open to living in new places when I still can. Falling back to comfort zones has never seemed easier.</p>

<h2 id="change">Change</h2>

<p>I was also surprised by how little things changed in Hong Kong. Much of stores and restaraunts I used to go were still there. It felt like Hong Kong changes even slower than Oxford, which is surprising.</p>

<h2 id="coming-back-to-oxford">Coming back to Oxford</h2>

<p>It was only when I came back to Oxford did I realise how tiny the scale of Oxford is. Oxford just felt small and its streets cramped. Perhaps the relative lack of public transport in Oxford makes distances feel longer.</p>

<p>I still can’t stand that it takes on average &gt;5 seconds to get on a bus (the bus driver asks people where they’re going, the bus driver picks the right price, wait for the receipt to be printed out …) compared to one tap of the Octopus in Hong Kong (There are rarely variable pricing on buses, or even if there are you can click a button yourself and change prices quickly).</p>]]></content><author><name>Toby Lam</name></author><category term="Life" /><category term="Life@HongKong" /><summary type="html"><![CDATA[]]></summary></entry><entry><title type="html">Third Year at Oxford: Exams</title><link href="https://tobylam.xyz/2024/06/15/third-year-at-oxford" rel="alternate" type="text/html" title="Third Year at Oxford: Exams" /><published>2024-06-15T00:00:00+08:00</published><updated>2024-06-15T00:00:00+08:00</updated><id>https://tobylam.xyz/2024/06/15/third-year-at-oxford</id><content type="html" xml:base="https://tobylam.xyz/2024/06/15/third-year-at-oxford"><![CDATA[<div class="full-bleed">
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<h2 id="exams">Exams</h2>

<p>I feel like my 3rd year exams are the peak of exams for me. The era of exams that I’ve been used to for the past 16 years of my life has peaked and would never return in its former glory.</p>

<p>Yet it’s still somewhat difficult caring about it. Exams felt like a game—If I spent time at it I would get good at it and feel good about it. One can argue that all of life is about this feedback loop. It is also difficult to entirely negate the value of the things I learnt through doing exams. Maybe it’s just burnout from this process that has been repeated too many times.</p>

<p>The most effective strategy for me has been to (1) do past papers in addition to easy exercises in a variety of textbooks and (2) find anything interesting in the syllabus that could be turned into a blog post. (2) is extremely time-ineffective if the goal was to get better grades, but I feel like in the long term it definetely nets me the most value.</p>

<p>For a while, I genuinely struggled to care about it. We all know that exams are not a great indicator of much. Yet, at some point I really felt that anyone who understands the material should be able to at least get a decent grade. And so I tried harder, well, as hard as I think I should anyways.</p>

<h2 id="split-identities">Split identities</h2>

<p>I have been thinking for a while about where this blog stands. Ultimately, this blog is some imperfect reflection of my own identity. For as long as I pursue mathematics academically, this blog’s home page will be about maths and “non-maths” will be on the nav bar. Yet what if I do something else? What if I went into tech, or finance, or whatever?</p>

<p>I suppose I shouldn’t let this blog stop me from redirecting my interests. Yet to spin it more positively, it makes me wonder how my past experiences can contribute to what I’m doing now. How do I make my life more holistic?</p>]]></content><author><name>Toby Lam</name></author><category term="Life" /><category term="Life@Oxford" /><summary type="html"><![CDATA[]]></summary></entry><entry><title type="html">From Immigrant to Inventor - Mihajlo Pupin</title><link href="https://tobylam.xyz/2024/06/07/from-immigrant-to-inventor" rel="alternate" type="text/html" title="From Immigrant to Inventor - Mihajlo Pupin" /><published>2024-06-07T00:00:00+08:00</published><updated>2024-06-07T00:00:00+08:00</updated><id>https://tobylam.xyz/2024/06/07/from-immigrant-to-inventor</id><content type="html" xml:base="https://tobylam.xyz/2024/06/07/from-immigrant-to-inventor"><![CDATA[<p>An <a href="https://www.gutenberg.org/ebooks/66886">autobiography</a> about a physicist who emigrated from a small Serbian village to the US. Having won a Pulitzer Prize in 1924, its relevance still shines a century later. It’s comically hair-raising how some aspects of academia haven’t changed at all. <!-- more --> The book is in the public domain and <a href="https://www.gutenberg.org/ebooks/66886">free to download</a>. Here are some excerpts I’ve found particularly relevant.</p>

<h2 id="princeton">Princeton</h2>

<blockquote>
  <p>I saw an endless chain of difficult things between me and my enrolment as a student at Princeton, the home for gentle American youth. Social unpreparedness, I felt, was a much more serious difficulty than unpreparedness in things which one can learn from books. This difficulty could not be overcome by associating with people east of the Bowery, and I was heading that way. The nearer the train approached New York the less anxious I was to return to it. From Nassau Hall to the Bowery was too abrupt a change, and from the Bowery to Nassau Hall the change would have been even more abrupt. I compromised and looked up Christian’s home on West Street.</p>
</blockquote>

<h2 id="questions-in-life">Questions in life</h2>

<blockquote>
  <p>I told him that my feast had already begun and called his attention to the heavenly melody. He said: “Oh, that’s Gabriel, the son of my neighbor Milutin. He entered the village school when you left Idvor, and he finished it long ago. He will be married on St. Michael’s day, and what you hear now is his sefdalia (song of sighs) for his future bride, who is over there in our drowsy village.” When he jokingly suggested that I might be looking forward to the enjoyment of the sweets of simple pastoral life which were in store for Gabriel, if I had not turned my back on Idvor eleven years before, I answered that perhaps it was not too late to correct the error. The priest looked astonished, and asked me whether I had crossed and recrossed the Atlantic in order to become a shepherd of Idvor. I said nothing, but I knew that Gabriel’s melody had disclosed to me another world in which the question “What is Light?” is by no means the most important question. There were other great questions of human life, the answers to which can perhaps be found in Idvor without a knowledge of Maxwell’s electrical theory.</p>

  <p>…</p>

  <p>Gabriel did not know much, I said to myself, but the little knowledge he had was very definite. He knew that he loved the girl he was about to marry, and he also knew that his life, following in the footsteps of his peasant ancestors, had a definite object in view which, as everybody in his village knew, was easily attainable. I knew more than Gabriel did, but my knowledge was not as definite as his. My aim in life was, I thought, much higher than his; but was it attainable? And, if attainable, was it worth the struggle? Two months earlier such a question could not have occurred to me even in a dream. But Gabriel’s melody and the dreamy atmosphere of Idvor suggested it.</p>
</blockquote>

<h2 id="tripos">Tripos</h2>

<blockquote>
  <p>In the course of time I discovered that I was not alone in my opinion; many Cambridge men failed to find in tripos drills the stimulating elements of that scientific spirit which leads to original research. I was a goose which groped around in a fog when I came to Cambridge; but, if I had come from an English college as a promising tripos candidate, with my work cut out for me by my superiors and in accordance with old customs and traditions of Cambridge, I should not have discovered that there was in Cambridge at that time an epoch-making movement, the significance of which cannot be overestimated. I shall return to this point later.</p>
</blockquote>

<h2 id="vision">Vision</h2>

<blockquote>
  <p>I never understood the full meaning of low living and high thinking as well as I did while I was a lodger at the Macmillan homestead. My thinking machinery, I thought, never worked better, and even my vision, always very good, seemed to be better than ever before. On exceptionally clear days I was sure that from the high elevation of the Macmillan cottage, on the slope of Goat Fell Mountain, I could see the beautiful Firth of Clyde as far as Greenock and Paisley, and at times even the gray and gloomy edifices of Glasgow seemed to loom up in the distance. I bragged about it, but my friends at Corrie met my bragging by informing me, jokingly, that any Scotchman can see much farther than that. One of them, a pupil of Sir William Thomson at the University of Glasgow, met my bragging by the epigrammatic question: “Can you see in Faraday as far as Maxwell, the Scotchman, saw?” I never bragged again about my vision while I was in Scotland. I was certain, however, that from the Macmillan homestead on the slopes of Goat Fell Mountain I obtained a deeper view into Faraday’s discoveries than I could have obtained in any other place. I seldom mention the names of Faraday and Maxwell without recalling to memory the beautiful island of Arran and the humble Macmillan homestead on Goat Fell Mountain.</p>
</blockquote>

<h2 id="is-admin-death">Is admin death?</h2>

<blockquote>
  <p>Why did not our Joseph Henry, who discovered the oscillatory electrical motions and operated with apparatus similar to that employed by Hertz, pursue his studies further than he did in 1842? and why did not Maxwell, the formulator of the modern electromagnetic science, perform those ideally simple experiments which Hertz performed?</p>

  <p>…</p>

  <p>Henry’s fame among men of science was very greatand promised to grow even greater if he continued his scientific researches. He was still in his prime, only a few years over forty. But a patriotic duty called him to Washington, where the Smithsonian Institution waited for his skilled hand to organize it and to defend it against the scheming politician. … He was a great scientist, but he was also a great patriot; his country stood first and his own scientific achievements and fame stood second in his heart.</p>

  <p>…</p>

  <p>Maxwell was called to Cambridge to become the director of the new laboratory, and he responded, knowing well that, from that moment on, most of his time would be devoted to organization and administration. … But as director of the Cavendish laboratory he had trained a number of men, in order to prepare them to push on the line of advance where he had left it; and one of them, in particular, was soon to take the leadership in the rapid development of the Faraday-Maxwell electromagnetic theory.</p>
</blockquote>

<h2 id="obstacles-to-research">Obstacles to research</h2>

<blockquote>
  <p>But there were two obstacles: first, lack of experimental-research facilities; second, lack of leisure for scientific research. Rowland and his followers recognized the existence of these obstacles, and demanded reform. Most of the energy of the teachers of physical sciences was consumed in the lecture-room; they were pedagogues, “pouring information into passive recipients,” as Barnard described it. My own case was a typical one. How could I do any research as long as I had at my disposal a dynamo, a motor, an alternator, and a few crude measuring instruments only, all intended to be used every day for the instruction of electrical-engineering students? My own case was a typical one. How could I do any research as long as I had at my disposal a dynamo, a motor, an alternator, and a few crude measuring instruments only, all intended to be used every day for the instruction of electrical-engineering students? When the professor of engineering died, in the summer of 1891, a part of his work, theory of heat and hydraulics, was assigned to me. The professor of dynamics died a little later, and his work also was transferred to me. I was to carry the additional load of lecture-room work temporarily, but was relieved from it, in part only, after several years. As a reward my title was advanced to adjunct professor, with an advance of salary to two thousand five hundred dollars per annum. But in return for this royal salary I had to lecture three to four hours each forenoon, and help in the electrical laboratory instruction in the afternoons. While this pedagogic load was on my back scientific research could not be seriously thought of.</p>

  <p>…</p>

  <p>Rowland said once that lack of experimental facilities and of time was not a valid excuse for neglecting entirely scientific research. I agreed with that opinion; neglect breeds indifference, and indifference degenerates into atrophy of the spirit of inquiry.</p>
</blockquote>

<h2 id="revisting-the-roots">Revisting the roots</h2>

<blockquote>
  <p>I firmly believe that the amalgamation of the foreign-born would be speeded up wonderfully if we could make it obligatory that every foreign-born American citizen should revisit his native land at stated intervals of time. Had I not visited my native land so many times since my landing at Castle Garden in 1874, the memory of my early experiences in America, described in the earlier parts of this narrative, would probably have faded away completely long ago. Had I not visited Belgrade and Panchevo in 1919 I should not have been stirred up on the subject of American idealism, and particularly about the American idealism in science. It was in Belgrade and Panchevo where the stimulus was applied which revived the memory of my experiences in Columbia College, in the Universities of Cambridge and Berlin, and in my professorial work at Columbia University, and made me pass in rapid review through all my experiences which have a bearing upon American idealism, and particularly upon the idealism in American science.</p>
</blockquote>]]></content><author><name>Toby Lam</name></author><category term="Reviews" /><category term="Book reviews" /><summary type="html"><![CDATA[An autobiography about a physicist who emigrated from a small Serbian village to the US. Having won a Pulitzer Prize in 1924, its relevance still shines a century later. It’s comically hair-raising how some aspects of academia haven’t changed at all.]]></summary></entry><entry><title type="html">A circle and a hyperbola living in one plot</title><link href="https://tobylam.xyz/2024/05/24/circle-hyperbola" rel="alternate" type="text/html" title="A circle and a hyperbola living in one plot" /><published>2024-05-24T00:00:00+08:00</published><updated>2024-05-24T00:00:00+08:00</updated><id>https://tobylam.xyz/2024/05/24/circle-hyperbola</id><content type="html" xml:base="https://tobylam.xyz/2024/05/24/circle-hyperbola"><![CDATA[<p>We will see that the 3D plot of \(x^2 + (y + zi)^2 = 1\), where \(x\), \(y\), \(z\) are real and \(i\) is the imaginary unit, contains both a circle and a hyperbola. This visualization sheds light on the complex eigenvalues of real matrices. <!-- more --></p>

<p>Let’s start by expanding the equation \(x^2+(y+zi)^2 = 1\) and separating it into real and imaginary parts. We get:</p>

\[\begin{align*}
    &amp;\text{Real Part:} &amp;x^2 + y^2 - z^2 &amp;= 1, \\
    &amp;\text{Imaginary Part:} &amp;yz &amp;= 0. 
\end{align*}\]

<p>The condition \(yz=0\) splits into two cases:</p>

\[\begin{align*}
    \text{Case 1: }y&amp;=0 \text{ and so } x^2-z^2 = 1\\
    \text{Case 2: }z&amp;=0 \text{ and so } x^2+y^2 = 1 
\end{align*}\]

<p>Case 1 nets us a hyperbola in the \(xz\)-plane. Case 2 nets us a unit circle in the \(xy\)-plane.</p>

<p>You can check out the plot at <a href="https://www.desmos.com/3d/jhhnque3hz">desmos</a>.</p>

<p><img class="full-width-image" src="/generated/assets/images/2024-05-24-1st-800-f03d742f6.webp" srcset="/generated/assets/images/2024-05-24-1st-400-f03d742f6.webp 400w, /generated/assets/images/2024-05-24-1st-600-f03d742f6.webp 600w, /generated/assets/images/2024-05-24-1st-800-f03d742f6.webp 800w, /generated/assets/images/2024-05-24-1st-1000-f03d742f6.webp 1000w" /></p>

<h2 id="eigenvalues-and-dynamical-systems">Eigenvalues and dynamical systems</h2>

<p>Why does this matter beyond the visuals? These kinds of plots often appears when studying the (complex) eigenvalues of a real matrix that depends on a real parameter. For example, consider the matrix</p>

\[M(\mu) = \begin{bmatrix}
    0 &amp; 1+\mu \\
    1-\mu &amp; 0
\end{bmatrix}\]

<p>for real \(\mu\).</p>

<p>The eigenvalues \(\lambda\) of \(M\) satisify the equation \(\mu^2 + \lambda^2 = 1.\) Letting \(\mu = x\) and \(\lambda = y+zi\) recovers the plot of \(x^2 + (y+iz)^2 = 1.\)</p>

<p>From the geometry of the plot, we can immediately read off the eigenvalue behavior:</p>

\[\begin{align*}
    \mu &lt; -1&amp;: M(\mu) \text{ complex conjugate eigenvalues} \\
    \mu = -1&amp;: M(\mu) \text{ repeated eigenvalue } \lambda = 0 \\
    -1 &lt; \mu &lt; 1&amp;: M(\mu) \text{ one }+\text{ve and one }-\text{ve real eigenvalue} \\
    \mu = 1&amp;:  M(\mu) \text{ repated eigenvalue } \lambda = 0 \\
    \mu &gt; 1&amp;: M(\mu) \text{ complex conjugate eigenvalues} 
\end{align*}\]

<h2 id="more-examples">More examples</h2>

<p>Consider the matrix</p>

\[M(\mu) = \begin{bmatrix}
    1 &amp; \mu \\
    1 &amp; 1
\end{bmatrix}\]

<p>and think about its eigenvalues as a function of \(\mu\).</p>

<p>When \(\mu=1\), \(M(\mu)\) is degenerate and so has a zero eigenvalue. When \(\mu=0\), \(M(\mu)\) is a shear matrix with only one eigenvalue \(\lambda = 1\). As <a href="/2024/02/02/visual-invertibility-diagonalisability">shear matrices live on the boundary of diagonalisable and non-diagonalisable matrices</a>, we can reasonably further guess that if \(\mu&lt;0\) then \(M(\mu)\) has complex conjugate eigenvalues and if \(\mu&gt;0\) then \(M(\mu)\) has real eigenvalues.</p>

<p>Concretely, considering the eigenvalue equation \(\lambda^2 - 2\lambda + (1-\mu) = 0\) and letting \(\mu=x\) and \(\lambda=y+zi\) and re-arranging terms we get</p>

\[\left((y+zi)-1\right)^2=x.\]

<p>By splitting into real parts and imaginary parts and re-arranging terms we get</p>

\[\begin{align*}
    &amp;\text{Real Part:} &amp;(y-1)^2 - z^2 &amp;= x, \\
    &amp;\text{Imaginary Part:} &amp;(y-1)z &amp;= 0. 
\end{align*}\]

<p>Again we have two cases</p>

\[\begin{align*}
    \text{Case 1: }y&amp;=1 \text{ and so } -z^2 = x\\
    \text{Case 2: }z&amp;=0 \text{ and so } (y-1)^2 = 0
\end{align*}\]

<p>Case 1 nets us a parabola in the \(xz\)-plane while Case 2 nets us a parabola in the \(xy\)-plane. Finally, we arrive at <a href="https://www.desmos.com/3d/zmmu6dy1xh">the plot</a>.</p>

<p><img class="full-width-image" src="/generated/assets/images/2024-05-24-2nd-800-4ee7a5503.webp" srcset="/generated/assets/images/2024-05-24-2nd-400-4ee7a5503.webp 400w, /generated/assets/images/2024-05-24-2nd-600-4ee7a5503.webp 600w, /generated/assets/images/2024-05-24-2nd-800-4ee7a5503.webp 800w, /generated/assets/images/2024-05-24-2nd-1000-4ee7a5503.webp 1000w" /></p>

<p>You can create these sort of plots for any other 2 by 2 matrix that depends on one real parameter using <a href="https://www.desmos.com/3d/zmmu6dy1xh">a desmos calculator</a> I made.</p>]]></content><author><name>Toby Lam</name></author><category term="Maths" /><category term="Linear algebra" /><category term="Complex analysis" /><category term="Dynamical systems" /><summary type="html"><![CDATA[We will see that the 3D plot of \(x^2 + (y + zi)^2 = 1\), where \(x\), \(y\), \(z\) are real and \(i\) is the imaginary unit, contains both a circle and a hyperbola. This visualization sheds light on the complex eigenvalues of real matrices.]]></summary></entry><entry><title type="html">Taylor series raised to a power</title><link href="https://tobylam.xyz/2024/05/21/taylor-series-raised-power" rel="alternate" type="text/html" title="Taylor series raised to a power" /><published>2024-05-21T00:00:00+08:00</published><updated>2024-05-21T00:00:00+08:00</updated><id>https://tobylam.xyz/2024/05/21/taylor-series-raised-power</id><content type="html" xml:base="https://tobylam.xyz/2024/05/21/taylor-series-raised-power"><![CDATA[<p>Given some \(f(x)\), what’s the taylor series of \(f(x)^p\) for some real \(p\)?</p>

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<p>Given some \(f(x)\), what’s the taylor series of \(f(x)^p\) for some real \(p\) around \(x=0\)? One can always calculate derivatives by hand, but we’d present a more intuitive method.</p>

<p>For the sake of simplicity, we will assume that \(f(x)&gt;0\) on a small ball around \(x=0\). The idea is that we express \(f(x)^p = f(0)(1+h(x))^p\) for some \(h(x)\) derived from the taylor series of \(f(x)\). Then we use the taylor series of \((1+x)^p\) around \(x=0\) to deduce the taylor series of \(f(x)^p\). Even though this sounds abstract, this might be what you are used to doing unconciously anyways.</p>

<p><strong>Example:</strong> What’s the taylor series of \(\cos^2 x\)? We know that \(\cos x = 1 - \frac{x^2}{2} + O(x^4).\) From binomial expansion we also know \((1+x)^2 = 1+2x+x^2.\) So</p>

\[\begin{align*}
    \cos^2 x &amp;= \left(1-\tfrac{x^2}{2} + O(x^4)\right)^2 \\
    &amp;= \left(1-\tfrac{x^2}{2}\right)^2 + O(x^4) \\
    &amp;= 1 - x^2 + O(x^4). \\
\end{align*}\]

<p>We were able to simplify \((1-\tfrac{x^2}{2} + O(x^4))^2\) into  \((1-\tfrac{x^2}{2})^2 + O(x^4)\) because any cross term that involves \(O(x^4)\) is going to be \(O(x^4)\).</p>

<p>This is evidently quicker than finding the first and second derivative of \(\cos^2 x\) at \(x=0\).</p>

<p><strong>Example:</strong> What’s the taylor series of \(\frac{1}{\cos x}\)? From geometric series, we know that \(\frac{1}{1-x} = 1 + x + x^2 + O(x^3)\). So</p>

\[\begin{align*}
    1/{\cos x} &amp;= 1/(1 - (\tfrac{x^2}{2} + O(x^4))) \\
    &amp;= 1/(1-\tfrac{x^2}{2}) + O(x^4) \\
    &amp;= 1 + \tfrac{x^2}{2} + O(x^4). 
\end{align*}\]

<p>We were able to simplify \(1/(1 - \tfrac{x^2}{2} + O(x^4))\) into \(1/(1-\tfrac{x^2}{2}) + O(x^4)\) for a similar reason to the previous example. Any cross term involving \(O(x^4)\) in the geometric series is going to be of \(O(x^4)\) and can be ignored.</p>

<p>We could’ve reasonbly guessed this expression from the previous example as \(\cos x \tfrac{1}{\cos x} = 1\) and \((1+\tfrac{x^2}{2})(1-\tfrac{x^2}{2}) = 1 + O(x^4)\).</p>

<h2 id="non-integer-exponents">Non-integer exponents</h2>

<p>We will make use of the following. Let \(p\) be a real number. Then for \(x \in (-1, 1)\), then the taylor series of \((1+x)^p\)</p>

\[(1+x)^p = 1 + px + \tfrac{p(p-1)}{2!}x^2 + \tfrac{p(p-1)(p-2)}{3!}x^3 + \dots\]

<p>Intuitively we can deduce the above by repeatedly taking derivatives of \((1+x)^p\) and evaluating it at \(x=0\) (Similar to calculating expectations from probability generating functions).</p>

<p>If \(p\) is an integer, the above reduces to the binomial theorem. For example,</p>

\[\begin{align*}(1+x)^3 &amp;= 1 + 3x + \tfrac{3(3-1)}{2!} x^2 +  \tfrac{3(3-1)(3-2)}{3!}x^3 + \dots \\
&amp;= 1 + 3x + 3x^2 + x^3. \end{align*}\]

<p>With this at hand, we can deduce even more taylor series.</p>

<p><strong>Example:</strong> What’s the taylor series of \(\sqrt{\cos x}\)?  We now know that \(\sqrt{1+x} = 1 + \tfrac{1}{2}x + O(x^2)\).  So</p>

\[\begin{align*}
    \sqrt{\cos x} &amp;= \sqrt{1-\tfrac{x^2}{2} + O(x^4)} \\
    &amp;= \sqrt{1-\tfrac{x^2}{2}} + O(x^4) \\
    &amp;= 1 - \tfrac{x^2}{4} + O(x^4). \\
\end{align*}\]

<p><strong>Example:</strong> What’s the taylor series of \(1/\sqrt{\cos x}\)?  We now know that \(1/\sqrt{1+x} = 1 - \tfrac{1}{2}x + O(x^2)\).  So</p>

\[\begin{align*}
    1/\sqrt{\cos x} &amp;= 1/\sqrt{1-\tfrac{x^2}{2} + O(x^4)} \\
    &amp;= 1/\sqrt{1-\tfrac{x^2}{2}} + O(x^4) \\
    &amp;= 1 + \tfrac{x^2}{4} + O(x^4). \\
\end{align*}\]

<p>We could’ve reasonbly guessed this expression from the previous example as \(\sqrt{\cos x} \frac{1}{\sqrt{\cos x}} = 1\) and \((1+x^2)(1-x^2) = 1 + O(x^4)\).</p>

<h2 id="related-topics">Related topics</h2>

<p>You may find the <a href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/General_Leibniz_rule">general Leinbiz rule</a> interesting. We can also formulate the taylor series of \((1+x)^p\) using <a href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gamma_function">Gamma functions</a>.</p>

<h2 id="going-further">Going further</h2>

<p>More generally one can ask what the taylor series of \(f(g(x))\) around \(x=0\). Again we can get an explicit formula by calculating derivatives using the product rule, but for most cases better methods apply. Again we will assume \(f(x), g(x) &gt; 0\) on a ball around \(x=0\).</p>

<p><strong>Example:</strong> What’s the taylor series of \(\cos\left(\cos x\right)\) around \(x=0\)? We have</p>

\[\begin{align*}
    \cos\left(\cos x\right)&amp;= \cos\left(1 - \tfrac{x^2}{2} + O(x^4)\right). \\
\end{align*}\]

<p>Evidently we need the taylor series of \(\cos x\) around \(x=1\). We can compute that \(\cos(1+x) = \cos(1) - \sin(1) x + O(x^2)\). As such</p>

\[\begin{align*}
    \cos\left(\cos x\right)&amp;= \cos(1) + \sin(1) \tfrac{x^2}{2} + O(x^4). \\
\end{align*}\]

<p>In essence, you can deduce the chain rule using taylor series. Given \(f(g(x))\), we can taylor expand it around some \(x=a\). We will make use of two taylor series—The taylor series of \(g(x)\) around \(x=a\) and the taylor series of \(f(x)\) around \(x=g(a)\).</p>

\[\begin{align*}
    g(a+x) &amp;= g(a) + g'(a)x + O(x^2), \\
    f\left(g(a)+x\right) &amp;= f(g(a)) + f'(g(a))x + O(x^2).
\end{align*}\]

<p>Hence</p>

\[\begin{align*}
    f(g(x+a)) &amp;= f\left(g(a) + g'(a)x + O(x^2)\right) \\
    &amp;= f\left(g(a) + g'(a)x\right) + O(x^2) \\
    &amp;= f(g(a)) + f'(g(a))g'(a)x + O(x^2).
\end{align*}\]]]></content><author><name>Toby Lam</name></author><category term="Maths" /><category term="Calculus" /><summary type="html"><![CDATA[Given some f(x), what's the taylor series of f(x)^p for some real p?]]></summary></entry><entry><title type="html">A Brighter Summer Day</title><link href="https://tobylam.xyz/2024/05/09/a-brighter-summer-day" rel="alternate" type="text/html" title="A Brighter Summer Day" /><published>2024-05-09T00:00:00+08:00</published><updated>2024-05-09T00:00:00+08:00</updated><id>https://tobylam.xyz/2024/05/09/a-brighter-summer-day</id><content type="html" xml:base="https://tobylam.xyz/2024/05/09/a-brighter-summer-day"><![CDATA[<div class="full-bleed">
    <img class="full-bleed-image" src="/generated/assets/images/2024-05-09-cover-900-9752f9676.webp" srcset="/generated/assets/images/2024-05-09-cover-480-9752f9676.webp 480w, /generated/assets/images/2024-05-09-cover-600-9752f9676.webp 600w, /generated/assets/images/2024-05-09-cover-720-9752f9676.webp 720w, /generated/assets/images/2024-05-09-cover-900-9752f9676.webp 900w, /generated/assets/images/2024-05-09-cover-1080-9752f9676.webp 1080w, /generated/assets/images/2024-05-09-cover-1260-9752f9676.webp 1260w, /generated/assets/images/2024-05-09-cover-1440-9752f9676.webp 1440w, /generated/assets/images/2024-05-09-cover-1597-9752f9676.webp 1597w" sizes="(max-width: 600px) 100vw, (max-width: 1000px) 600px, (max-width: 1400px) 950px, (min-width: 1401px) 1200px" width="1597" height="400" />

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<p><img class="full-width-image" src="/generated/assets/images/2024-05-09-screenshot-600-5b9d39741.webp" srcset="/generated/assets/images/2024-05-09-screenshot-480-5b9d39741.webp 480w, /generated/assets/images/2024-05-09-screenshot-600-5b9d39741.webp 600w, /generated/assets/images/2024-05-09-screenshot-720-5b9d39741.webp 720w, /generated/assets/images/2024-05-09-screenshot-900-5b9d39741.webp 900w, /generated/assets/images/2024-05-09-screenshot-1080-5b9d39741.webp 1080w, /generated/assets/images/2024-05-09-screenshot-1260-5b9d39741.webp 1260w, /generated/assets/images/2024-05-09-screenshot-1440-5b9d39741.webp 1440w, /generated/assets/images/2024-05-09-screenshot-1800-5b9d39741.webp 1800w, /generated/assets/images/2024-05-09-screenshot-2160-5b9d39741.webp 2160w, /generated/assets/images/2024-05-09-screenshot-3000-5b9d39741.webp 3000w" sizes="(max-width: 600px) 100vw, (max-width: 1000px) 600px, (max-width: 1400px) 600px, (min-width: 1401px) 600px" width="3000" height="2250" /></p>

<p>A Brighter Summer Day, directed by Edward Yang, is an incredibly ambitious and moving movie. It touches on almost every theme that cinema could capture, yet never feels forced thanks to its foundation in a true story. I wished I had gone into the movie completely blind—anything you could think of would probably appear in the movie anyway.</p>

<p>Despite a run time of nearly four hours, the movie remains tightly focused on events that affect its protagonist. This makes its length its strength as it gives the audience significant time to sympathize with its characters and absorb the social context of that time. Because of this, it’s one of the few movies that convinces me of the inevitability of its plot—if I were to step into the any character’s shoes, I wouldn’t have done anything differently.</p>]]></content><author><name>Toby Lam</name></author><category term="Reviews" /><category term="Movie reviews" /><summary type="html"><![CDATA[An incredibly ambitious and moving movie.]]></summary></entry><entry><title type="html">Alternate notation for topology</title><link href="https://tobylam.xyz/2024/05/04/topology-notation" rel="alternate" type="text/html" title="Alternate notation for topology" /><published>2024-05-04T00:00:00+08:00</published><updated>2024-05-04T00:00:00+08:00</updated><id>https://tobylam.xyz/2024/05/04/topology-notation</id><content type="html" xml:base="https://tobylam.xyz/2024/05/04/topology-notation"><![CDATA[<p>We introduce some notation for the image and pre-image function. This will be useful as the definitions of topologies and continuity rely heavily on these functions.</p>

<h2 id="notation">Notation</h2>

<p>Given some function \(f:X \to Y\) and some subset \(S\) of \(X\). We often use \(f(S)\) to denote the image of \(S\) under \(f\), i.e. the subset \(\{f(s) \,\vert\, s \in S\}\) of \(Y\).  To distinguish between the original function and the image function, we will use \(Rf\) to denote the image function.</p>

<p>Similarly, if some function \(f:X \to Y\) was bijective, then we can define the inverse function \(f^{-1}: Y \to X\) where for any \(y \in Y\), \(f^{-1}(y)\) is the unique element in \(X\) such that \(f(f^{-1}(y)) = y\). For functions \(f\) that may or may not be bijective, we will use \(Lf\) to denote the pre-image function. I.e. given any subset \(S\) of \(Y\), let \(Lf(S)\) be the subset \(\{s \in X \,\vert\, f(s) \in S\}\) of \(X\).</p>

<p>To summarise,</p>

\[\begin{align*} 
    Rf: \mathcal{P}(X) \to \mathcal{P}(Y) &amp;\text{ with } Rf(A) = \{ f(a) \,\vert\, a \in A\}, \\
    Lf: \mathcal{P}(Y) \to \mathcal{P}(X) &amp;\text{ with } Lf(B) = \{ a\in X \,\vert\, f(a) \in B\} \\
\end{align*}\]

<p>where \(\mathcal{P}(S)\) denotes the power set of \(S\).</p>

<h2 id="topology">Topology</h2>

<p>To define continuity we need a notion of topologies. Given some set \(X\), a topology \(\tau\) of \(X\) is a collection of subsets of \(X\) (called open sets) with <a href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Topological_space">some conditions</a>. We can think of \(\tau\) as an element of the power set of the power set of \(X\), \(\mathcal{P}(\mathcal{P}(X))\). We use \((X, \tau_X)\) to denote the set \(X\) with the topology \(\tau_X\). As an overview, we have the following table.</p>

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		Set & Elements & Example \\
		\midrule 
		\(\mathbb{R}\) & Real numbers & \(\pi\), 1/3  \\
		\(\mathcal{P}(\mathbb{R})\) & Subsets of real numbers & \(\mathbb{Q}\), [0,1] \\
		\(\mathcal{P}(\mathcal{P}(\mathbb{R}))\) & Subsets of the set of subsets \newline of real numbers  &  Euclidean topology of \(\mathbb{R}\) \\
		\bottomrule\end{tabular}
\end{table} -->

<h2 id="composition-of-images-and-pre-images">Composition of images and pre-images</h2>

<p>To define continuity, we will also compose image and pre-image functions. We will use \(RLf\) to denote \(R(Lf)\) and similarly \(LRf\) to denote \(L(Rf)\). Let’s consider a simple example.</p>

<p><strong>Example:</strong> Let \(X=\{a\}\) and \(Y=\{b\}\). We will use \(\emptyset_X\) and \(\emptyset_Y\) to denote respectively the empty sets of \(X\) and \(Y\). We define \(f: X \to Y\) by \(f(a) = b\). The image function of \(f\) is</p>

\[Rf: \mathcal{P}(X) \to \mathcal{P}(Y)\]

<p>defined by \(Rf(\emptyset_X) = \emptyset_Y\) and \(Rf(\{a\}) = \{b\}\) . As such the image function of the image function of \(f\) is</p>

\[R(Rf): \mathcal{P}(\mathcal{P}(X)) \to \mathcal{P}(\mathcal{P}(Y))\]

<p>defined by</p>

\[\begin{align*}
    RRf(\{\}) &amp;= \{\}, \\
    RRf(\{\emptyset_X\}) &amp;= \{\emptyset_Y\}, \\
    RRf(\{\{a\}\}) &amp;= \{\{b\}\}, \\
    RRf(\{\emptyset_X, \{a\}\}) &amp;= \{\emptyset_Y, \{b\}\}.
\end{align*}\]

<h2 id="continuity">Continuity</h2>

<p>The classical definition of continuity is that given some function \(f: (X, \tau_X) \to (Y, \tau_Y)\), \(f\) is continuous if for all \(U \in \tau_Y\), \(Lf(U) \in \tau_X\). Using the notation above, we can prove the following.</p>

<p><strong>Claim:</strong> \(f: (X, \tau_X) \to (Y, \tau_Y)\) is continuous if and only if</p>

\[RLf (\tau_Y) \subseteq \tau_X.\]

<p><strong>Proof:</strong></p>

<p>We can first check that this is well defined. Since \(Lf\) is a function from \(\mathcal{P}(Y)\) to \(\mathcal{P}(X)\), \(R(Lf)\) is indeed a function from \(\mathcal{P}(\mathcal{P}(Y))\) to \(\mathcal{P}(\mathcal{P}(X))\).</p>

<p>Now we will show the equivalence.</p>

\[\begin{align*}
    &amp;\quad RLf (\tau_Y) \subseteq \tau_X \\
    &amp;\iff  \{Lf(U) \,\vert\, U \in \tau_Y \} \subseteq \tau_X &amp; \text{Definition of } R \\
    &amp;\iff \forall U \in \tau_Y, Lf(U) \in \tau_X \\
    &amp;\iff f \text{ continuous} &amp; \text{Definition of continuity}
\end{align*}\]

<p>Q.E.D.</p>
<h2 id="composition-of-continuous-functions">Composition of continuous functions</h2>

<p>We can now succinctly prove that composition of continuous functions are continuous. Before that, we need some basic properties of images and pre-images which proofs will be left to the reader.</p>

<p><strong>Lemma 1:</strong> Let \(f: X \to Y\) and let \(A \subseteq B \subseteq X\), \(S \subseteq T \subseteq Y\). Then</p>

\[\begin{align*}
    Rf(A) &amp;\subseteq Rf(B), \\
    Lf(S) &amp;\subseteq Lf(T). \\
\end{align*}\]

<p><strong>Lemma 2:</strong> Let \(f: X \to Y\) and \(g: Y \to Z\), then</p>

\[\begin{align*}
    R(g \circ f) &amp;= Rg \circ Rf,\\
    L(g \circ f) &amp;= Lf \circ Lg. \\
\end{align*}\]

<p><strong>Claim:</strong> Let \(f: (X, \tau_X) \to (Y,\tau_Y)\) and \(g: (Y, \tau_Y) \to (Z, \tau_Z)\). If \(f\) and \(g\) are continuous, then \(g \circ f\) is continuous.</p>

<p><strong>Proof:</strong></p>

<p>As \(g\) and \(f\) are continuous, we have</p>

\[\begin{align*} RLg (\tau_Z) &amp;\subseteq \tau_Y, \\ RLf(\tau_Y) &amp;\subseteq \tau_X. \end{align*}\]

<p>So</p>

\[\begin{align*} 
    &amp;RL(g \circ f)(\tau_Z) \\
    &amp;= R(Lf \circ Lg ) (\tau_Z) &amp; \text{ lemma 2} \\
    &amp;= (RLf \circ RLg) (\tau_Z) &amp; \text{ lemma 2} \\
    &amp;= RLf( RLg(\tau_Z)) \\
    &amp;\subseteq RLf(\tau_Y) &amp; g \text{ continuous \&amp; lemma 1} \\
    &amp;\subseteq \tau_X. &amp; f \text{ continuous}
\end{align*}\]

<p>Q.E.D.</p>

<p>Before we proceed any further, it’s helpful to consider the domains and codomains of the following compositions of pre-image and image functions. Let \(f: X \to Y\) be a function.  Then the following functions have their corresponding domains and co-domains.</p>

\[\begin{align*}
    Rf&amp;: \mathcal{P}(X) \to \mathcal{P}(Y), \\
    Lf&amp;: \mathcal{P}(Y) \to \mathcal{P}(X), \\
    RRf &amp;: \mathcal{P}(\mathcal{P}(X)) \to \mathcal{P}(\mathcal{P}(Y)), \\
    LRf &amp;: \mathcal{P}(\mathcal{P}(Y)) \to \mathcal{P}(\mathcal{P}(X)), \\
    RLf &amp;: \mathcal{P}(\mathcal{P}(Y)) \to \mathcal{P}(\mathcal{P}(X)), \\
    LLf &amp;: \mathcal{P}(\mathcal{P}(X)) \to \mathcal{P}(\mathcal{P}(Y)). \\
\end{align*}\]

<h2 id="subspace-and-quotient-topology">Subspace and quotient topology</h2>

<p>We will now make alternate definitions of the subspace topology and the quotient topology using our notation. These topologies have various nice properties. One could think of them as a way to generate topologies from existing topologies using injective / surjective functions. Explicitly, consider \(f:(X, \tau_X) \to (Y, \tau_Y)\). If \(f\) is injective then \(RLf(\tau_Y)\) is the subspace topology of \(X\). If \(f\) is surjective then \(LLf(\tau_X)\) is the quotient topology of \(Y\).</p>

<p>We will also describe these topologies as either the coarsest or the finest
topology for which maps into or out of the space are continuous. However, we will stop short of describing the universal properties of these topologies.</p>

<h3 id="subspace-topology">Subspace topology</h3>

<p><strong>Definition:</strong> Let \(f: X \to (Y, \tau_Y)\) be an injective function. The topology \(\tau_X := RLf(\tau_Y)\) is called the subspace topology of \(X\).</p>

<p><strong>Remark:</strong> We may not assume the injectivity of \(f\), however this weakens certain properties of the subspace topology.</p>

<!-- **Claim:** Let $$f:X \to Y$$ be an injective function, then $$Lf \circ Rf = \text{id}$$. Let $$g: X \to Y$$ be a surjective function, then $$Rg \circ Lg = \text{id}$$. -->

<p>We can show that our definition is equivalent to the classical definition.</p>

<p><strong>Claim:</strong> Let \(f: X \to (Y, \tau_Y)\) be an injective function. Then \(S \in RLf(\tau_Y)\) if and only if there exists \(U \in \tau_Y\) such that \(Lf(U) = S\).</p>

<p><strong>Proof:</strong></p>

<p>Expand the definition of \(R\) in \(RLf(\tau_Y)\). We get \(RLf(\tau_Y) = \{Lf(U) \, \vert\, U \in \tau_Y\}\). Q.E.D.</p>

<p><strong>Example:</strong> Let \(f: [0,1] \to \mathbb{R}\) be the inclusion map. Clearly \(f\) is injective. The subspace topology of \(X = [0,1]\) is classically defined to be \(\tau_X = \{[0,1] \cap U \, \vert \, U \in \tau_\mathbb{R}\} = \{Lf(U) \, \vert \, U \in \tau_\mathbb{R}\} = RLf(\tau_\mathbb{R})\).</p>

<p>It’s clear that \(f: (X, RLf(\tau_Y)) \to (Y, \tau_Y)\) is continuous from our discussion on continuity. It’s also clear that \(RLf(\tau_Y)\) is the coarsest topology on \(X\) such that \(f\) is continuous.</p>

<h3 id="quotient-topology">Quotient topology</h3>

<p><strong>Definition:</strong> Let \(f: (X,\tau_X) \to Y\) be a surjective function. The topology \(\tau_Y := LLf(\tau_X)\) is called the quotient topology of \(Y\).</p>

<p><strong>Remark:</strong> There are <a href="https://math.stackexchange.com/questions/2711112/why-do-we-require-quotient-to-be-surjective">some reasons</a> why we would like \(f\) to be surjective.</p>

<p>We can show that it’s equivalent to the classical definition.</p>

<p><strong>Claim:</strong>  Let \(f: (X,\tau_X) \to Y\) be a surjective function. Then \(S \in LLf(\tau_X)\) if and only if \(Lf(S) \in \tau_X\).</p>

<p><strong>Proof:</strong></p>

<p>Expand the definition of the second \(L\) in \(LLf(\tau_X)\), we get \(LLf(\tau_X) = \{U \subseteq Y \, \vert \, Lf(U) \in \tau_X\}\). Q.E.D.</p>

<p><strong>Example:</strong> Let \(f: \mathbb{R} \to S^1 \subseteq \mathbb{R}^2\) by \(t \to (\cos t, \sin t)\). This is clearly a surjective function. The quotient topology on \(S^1\) is now \(LLf(\tau_\mathbb{R}) = \{U \subseteq S^1 \, \vert \, Lf(U) \in \tau_\mathbb{R}\} = \{U \subseteq S^1 \, \vert \, \{x \in \mathbb{R} \, \vert \, f(x) \in U\} \in \tau_\mathbb{R}\}\) which is what we expect.</p>

<p>The continuity of \(f: (X, \tau_X) \to (Y, LLf(\tau_X))\) is immediate from the previous claim. We can however prove it without the claim. We would first need a lemma, the proof of which is left as an exercise.</p>

<p><strong>Lemma 3:</strong> Let \(f: X \to Y\) and let \(A \subseteq X\), \(S \subseteq Y\). Then</p>

\[\begin{align*}
    (Lf \circ Rf)(A) &amp;\supseteq A, \\
    (Rf \circ Lf)(S) &amp;\subseteq S.\\
\end{align*}\]

<p><strong>Claim:</strong> If \(f: (X, \tau_X) \to Y\) is surjective, then \(f: (X, \tau_X) \to (Y, LLf(\tau_X))\) is continuous.</p>

<p><strong>Proof:</strong></p>

<p>To show that \(f\) is continuous, we need to show \(RLf(LLf(\tau_X)) \subseteq \tau_X\). Now \(RLf(LLf(\tau_X)) = (R(Lf) \circ L(Lf))(\tau_X) \subseteq \tau_X\) by lemma 3 applied to \(Lf: \mathcal{P}(Y) \to \mathcal{P}(X).\) Q.E.D.</p>

<p>We can also prove that \(LLf(\tau_X)\) is the finest topology on \(Y\) such that \(f\) is continuous.</p>

<p><strong>Claim:</strong> Let \(f: (X, \tau_X) \to (Y, \tau_Y)\) be surjective and continuous, then \(\tau_Y  \subseteq LLf(\tau_X)\).</p>

<p><strong>Proof:</strong></p>

<p>From continuity of \(f\), we have \(RLf(\tau_Y) \subseteq \tau_X\). Applying \(LLf\) to both sides, we would obtain</p>

\[(LLf \circ RLf) (\tau_Y) \subseteq  LLf (\tau_X)\]

<p>by lemma 1.</p>

<p>We also know that \(\tau_Y \subseteq (L(Lf) \circ R(Lf))(\tau_Y)\) by lemma 3. Combining the two inclusions we obtain</p>

\[\tau_Y \subseteq LLf (\tau_X).\]

<p>Q.E.D.</p>

<h2 id="conclusion">Closing remarks</h2>

<p>One can check out an alternate arrow notation from <a href="https://link.springer.com/book/10.1007/b139095">“Lattices and Ordered Algebraic Structures”</a> by T.S. Blyth. For more on topology, one can check out <a href="https://assets.pubpub.org/fkoo9e9w/01597354930146.pdf">chapter 1 of the book “Topology: A Categorical Approach”</a> by Tai-Danae Bradley et al.</p>

<p>Thanks to Isaac Li for comments and suggestions on notation.</p>]]></content><author><name>Toby Lam</name></author><category term="Maths" /><category term="Topology" /><summary type="html"><![CDATA[We introduce some notation for the image and pre-image function. This will be useful as the definitions of topologies and continuity rely heavily on these functions.]]></summary></entry></feed>